exams are around the corner.
i had a somewhat nasty shock today when i asked stef if next week was swotvac, only to be informed that next week exams begin
*dies*
i'm so stressed that i have been eating ridiculously large amounts, and then after when i look at my work, it's so hard that feel like barfing.
i don't think that's healthy..
some days i get cranky. cos it's upsetting that nobody takes me seriously when i'm stressed, everyone says "you'll be fine, you got into com/law". oh if only. so many people don't know how i fluked my way in, but somehow nobody offers help anymore because evidently people who do comlaw are supposed to breeze through everything.
and i'm unmotivated, because i feel like i'm halfway on the road to failure already.

also, there's extra stress for my students. i really want them to do well! if only i could do the exam for them, but i don't know how to motivate them when they don't try either.

blah. lately i have had a strange urge to listen to backstreet boys LOL and james morrison. i love james morrison, i could sit in bed and listen to him all day crooning in the background whilst reading a book. some days i sit in my room and bellow at the top of my lungs to 'i want it that way'
LOL. signs of losing it.

oh God, i can't wait till exams are over.

mm contracts comes in handy.

so my mum signed my sister up for some course which apparently advertised a "full money back guarantee" if the customer was dissatisfied. and having finished the course my sister said it was terrible and hence they wanted a refund, blabhlahblah..

.______.' EXPRESS TERMS.!

here's some food for thought, a couple of things that i've always wondered.

first, who ever decided that one day should have 24 hours? why not 10, 20, 30.. why 24? and why did everyone just decide to adhere to 24 hours.. =.= weird. it seems to me that if someone decided that we had fewer hours in a day we would all live to be a lot older, and i'd already be 18 *fumes*

also, why do people say "you're in a bit of a pickle" when they mean a problem? again, who decided pickle = problem?

the world's so strange ._.'

having returned from ASEAN BALL:WINTER SOLSTICE 2008 here are my thoughts about it:
-better food than law dinner. (meat was chewable & had some semblance of taste)
-better music (well, its a well known fact that asians like rnb whilst nonasians prefer house and the like, and yeh no house for me)
-too many asians.. i realised that many asian guys look the same.

on a side note, what is it with guys straightening their hair? so very unflattering.. reminds me of a sopping wet long-haired dog.

anyway feeling rather "...." now.. i don't really know what the word is to describe it, but i'm queasy and tired and groggy and bloated. an inevitable result of not eating & drinking after that. i dearly wanted to stick around with my food, but evidently no one eats at dinners you pay $100 for but go around socializing instead o_o so with great reluctance, i departed from my food only to come back and find to my consternation that it was GONE!! CLEARED FOR THE NEXT COURSE!! (grrr, social etiquette is so unnecessary sometimes *omg just spent 2 mins trying to spell "unnecessary")

sort of glad that there aren't any more big social events lined up on the calendar. at the moment, i'm too tired to go ID-huntin' again.
last night the stress of worrying about being denied entry into boulevard was very drainingggg.
so anyway when we returned to the hotel, exhausted, i was SO thirsty & there were mudslides & cowboys in the fridge.. 'nuff said.

so today i am recovering from the combined effects of being in heels for too long, drinking a tad, and being really REALLY sleep deprived thanks to SOMEONE'S incessant snoring (no prizes for guessing who :p LOL)

& it might be just me, but last night was PRETTY interesting. msn me to goss. LOL. =)
facebookin' the photos soon!

SO. first year law dinner & planet uni camp!
photos (:
from left: van my man, elena, me, stef with an f, and kylieeee
marcus kylie & i =] where's marcus's other half?
ah there we go! hi anthony! :D i like kylies hair.
xin #2 & peepee.
the girls.. lol.
dedicated to melonar.
lol whoops o_0 forgot it's 2 finger v-_-
chicken (first main) which i had.
i can't believe i paid 65 bucks for this stupid meaL!
the chicken meat was older than my grandma =.=
apparently the beef wasn't much better either.
ryan, jane & van
and the afterparty begins!
but xinni shoes hurt >.< onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjbMsk1zr5KIHiPnEiGQnMkl6Kio1rqCChPC3sUN4ommTMvU0B5Bz9fPae7sX4aFT2qXlgAt9ErvOAsybyUjdNMo2-EzKZVD2IYgl1nsZWAao9wWjKKM7WIf72e3k-xOwFoJKXmeA/s1600-h/n532220182_2871510_7728.jpg">xinni play games instead!
big group photo missing quite a few people.
playing "i never"
concentrating..
as the night wears on..
phoebe: omg? so many glasses?!
i love these people LOL.
urban life group 24. theme: spot the difference! :)
weeeeeeeeee!
why this dean so happy? ! >o<
yay group!
<3 hearts!

currently listening: stolen by dashboard confessional.
it's surprisingly good considering i'm not a huge dashboard fan.

anyhoo. 1.50am, as usual i'm not asleep even though i've been trying hard to make myself sleepy. maybe all i have to do is crawl into bed. but lately when i close my eyes, thoughts overwhelm me and i become lost in all the things that i push to the back of my mind day to day, but haunt me at night. no matter how i try to push them away, they come back larger than life.

and no, i don't have any problems right now.. i'm just referring to alot of things happening now that have made me very reflective.

You watch the season pull up its own stage
And catch the last weekend
Of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced
Another sun soaked season
Fades away

you have stolen my heart.

im watching from a big big bubble, it feels like im floating above everyone else and everything and not really there, not really in the moment.