the previous post is removed because, well.. i only want to remember the good times on this blog. any other times, i'll use it to rant and then delete it.

anyway.

my favourite song ever?

that's easy.

superman by five for fighting.

whenever i'm sad, whenever i'm happy, whenever i'm angry, whenever i'm hurt, whenever i need to calm down, whenever i'm troubled, i listen to this. more than any other song, it means so much to me. memories that come flooding back, from year 7, and through the years that followed.

and somehow, i've never managed to get sick of it.

anyway. valentine's day is around the corner.! one of my favourite holidays. i think everyone should celebrate it, whether or not they're attached or single. because it's about celebrating love, telling people around you that you cherish them. all around me, i see people getting ready to show someone else how much they love them, and it makes me feel so happy to be part of a world where we set aside a day just in honor of telling people around you how special they are to you. today i met a shop assistant who proudly told us her boyfriend had booked a dinner on the tram restaurant. didn't sound so special, but it was how she beamed when she said it, that made me realize that it was the effort her boyfriend went through to get a table there that made her so happy.

and this valentines day, someone i specially want honor and cherish is PRIS.

for all the times that you were there for me. i don't have to name them time by time, but between us we've shared a lot, bad and good. sometime this year, i thought we'd all grown apart because of.. well, so many reasons, but mainly because we were all moving in our different directions (no pun intended ;p) and somehow, i let myself get used to it and didn't bother to mend the growing gap, and i'm sososo sorry because now i realise that throughout the year, you must have had so many moments where you might've needed to talk to someone, and i wasn't fully there for you. you've always been the one who's wise and smart and knows what to do, and i took it for granted that sometimes you, even with your unshakeable faith, would feel lost and confused and need someone to be there. yesterday i realised, it doesn't matter how different we are, how sometimes we may not agree with the way each other thinks or deals with stuff, what matters is that, all along you've always been there to support me and not judge me, and for that i really am grateful from the bottom of my heart. i haven't been as big-hearted as you but i promise i'll try to be a better friend, even though you're going to be so far away. and you know that i will miss you sooooooooo much, your presence in my life, your psychotically loud laugh, and your beautiful voice that sings to God. but with all that, i know and understand the reasons you're going and i want to wish you all the best and a fresh start, where you can truly leave some things behind, and pursue a future thats shining brightly. and, i also wanted to tell you, i'll always be here for you.

who needs a guy when you have friends like that?

anyway, emo moment over.. this valentines' day, i'm spending it with my beloved single friends, and i'll make sure i treasure every single moment and store it up in my memory, because i have a feeling it's going to be the last valentine's i spend with all of them for awhile before everyone goes off or gets attached.
btw, to all of you - pris, glo, em, mich, mel, jan - you guys are the best friends anybody could ask for. *jan no dedication to you, cos im SURE YOU'LL BE COMING BACK FROM TASI, OR ELSE ;p

finally, it's time to remember the greatest love of all, the one that cleanses, forgives, heals, and nourishes.
the greatest love that anyone could ever know,
that overcame the cross and grave to find my soul..
and till i see you face to face, and grace amazing takes me home..
i'll trust in you..