YAY! finally, it's the end of the week!

TGIF!!

i am exhausted! this week has been crazy and jam-packed. i was going to recount my week but my low capacity brain is malfunctioning and now i'm not so sure what i did anymore.

*thinks*

MON
first day of uni, i had a marketing lecture. i know i was in considerable pain after camp and stoned throughout my lecture. i did meet a couple of other people though, and surprise! pat was in my marketing lecture. after that, i trudged off to work gloomily and although i didn't know it then.. it was my last day of work. ie, the last day i can perv on the cute german guy with curly brown hair and big blue eyes!! :(

TUE
very.packed.day. 9 - 5 i am at uni on tuesdays. i know i slipped into my 9am lecture late (grr, even after making such a heroic effort to crawl out of bed at 6.30!) and i fell asleep halfway through and got woken by the girl next to me when she gave the mother of all unglam sneezes. i jerked upright and my pen flew into the lap of the guy on the other side. and then i reached for it :p. JOKE! he gave it back. anyway the rest of the day went by as a blur, all i remember is dashing around with various people. met a 21 year old fellow singaporean in my micro tute and had lunch with him.. OH oh i remember now, tuesday was the day i sat through three lunches. one with my new friend benjamin, and then with elena and then with linda and jono. LOL. *guilty look* oh i also managed to join ASEAN and student life, the christian union in monash uni. hahahah ASEAN showbag had a chocolate flavoured condom much to my amusement.


WED
off i go to uni dreading that tank of a 3 hr contract law lecture. but yeay! on the bus i bumped into min2 n rob (whom i just found out his full name is actually robert i was like wth?! i never knew :p) nice surprise to see high school people! contracts was very very sleep-inducing, i kept nodding off and had to make a break for the convenience store and get myself some emergency tiny teddies to keep awake. afterwards i had a 3 hour long break where a bunch of us from law camp eventually found each other on the grass outside the law building where our free bbq was being held (yay! law always seems to have free bbqs for some ocassion or the other) and it was nice just to chill and laugh for 3 hours nonstop. the it occurred to me that might be the beginning of a new friendship group. :) intro to legal reasoning started making slightly more sense after i'd done a little of the prescribed readings and i actually really enjoyed the discussion going on around me. i love how law people are so very opinionated and outspoken! often i wish i were more confident but i think i'll keep low-key until i know abit more about the stuff they discuss. LOL. for now, i listen and pretend to nod in agreement even though i haven't the faintest idea what they're saying. :D at night we had trivia night and i just sat there like a retard eating the chips :D bahahhaha. made a few new friends though, one of whom kindly drove us home that night! and i think he's just offered to take me to uni on wednesdays cos we both have 9am starts. WOOOOOO! no more crappy crawling bus overflowing with students.

THU
got woken up by van. at 8.50. .____. lol. i was actually supposed to be in the city at 9 to sit in court. philip: ' gl getting to city in 10 mins.' :P
found out that rainbows aren't like the sun and they're not everywhere in the sky :( no wonder i lost the rainbow wen i got to the city!
court was good; we got decent stuff out of it and i was actually pretty interested. afterwards i dragged poor elena and jono shopping with me (mum's bday) i ended up getting her jag bag from myer and a cake. watched meet the spartans (jan- your type of movie!)
dinner with family. very like environmentally harmful (sharks' fin etc.) and didn't taste all that good.
sometimes i don't understand asian food.

FRI
marketing lect again! brekkie in the morn with mel, charles and davo. afterwards i drove to clayton with charles clinging onto his bag for dear life in the seat behind. i hate those big vehicles that like drive up beside you, stop, and then like. fart at you o__0 does anyone know what i'm talking about?? i got so nervous today cos i passed 2 of them.
lecture flew by, before we knew it van had abandoned her lecture and we were on our way to (according to van) the best dumplings in glennie. and i must admit, it was pretty good. we even got ice cream (yeayy) and all was perfect till van lost her wallet, but she found it so its all good now.
i went to officeworks before and bought the wrong printer catridge.. (waste of my $50) i am so very sad.
lately i have been quite into postsecret. I LOVE POSTSECRET!! and i also just watched edisons lame public apology -_-' i think its kinda sad how whenever sex scandals happen, the girl is always labelled a slut and the most derogatory comment a guy gets is 'playa'
anyways. off to worship prac now.:]
not sure who reads this chunk of crap, but i know i will when im feeling melancholic.
bye guys!!
p/s i know this is a crappy half-ass attempt at blogging.

if i lay here, if i just lay here.. would you lie with me and just forget the world?

hey all! i'm back from law camp and uni has officially kicked in.
it's been a crazy past couple of days, hence the lack of updates.
law camp was, to summarize, a lot of drinking and partying, basically, like tina said - a hedonistic weekend away. needless to say there were some pretty interesting and eye-opening moments (my eyes are no longer virgin eyes) and i did make a lot of friends when people were sober, so it was a good experience indeed. man, law camp is indeed nothing like innocent school camps.
uni! well i had my first couple of lectures and tutes yesterday and today. so far, except for my marketing tute, there hasn't been anything where i don't know anyone. lovely! :) i am really really grateful to have people i know around in lectures and tutes.

*on a slightly more melancholic note*
lately i have been a tad depressed, after another bout of my dad yelling at me, i reached for my phone and it hit me that my 'call up to cry' buddies, i.e. jan and pris are both interstate. that made me pretty sad :(

i miss my high school friends, like.. it's been great meeting people the past couple of days but i'm tiring a little of the same old introductory conversation you have with about 3247198374 people. i miss having people whom i don't have to tell them what i'm like, who already know, and who already understand and accept me, and whom i'm completely comfortable with.

ah well, it'll pass.
have a great week you all! i'm off to do some reading (behind already! and term's barely started.__.)

with much love,
xx xinn

my schedule for 2008 is crazy

Monday

14.00 – 15.00 Principles of Marketing Lecture

16.00 – 20.00 Work

20.30 – 21.30 Tutor

Tuesday

09.00 – 11.00 Principles of Microeconomics Lecture

11.00 – 12.00 Principles of Marketing Tutorial

12.00 – 13.00 Principles of Microeconomics Tutorial

15.00 – 17.00 Introduction to Legal Reasoning Lecture

Wednesday

09.00 – 12.00 Contract A Lecture (i was like wt&^%$ when i saw this beast of a 3 hr lecture.)

12.00 – 13.00 Contract A Tutorial

15.00 – 17.00 Introduction to Legal Reasoning Lecture

Friday

11.00 – 12.00 Principles of Marketing Lecture

16.00 – 20.00 Work

20.30 – 21.30 Tutor

Saturday

10.00 – 12.00 Tutor

so like, my question is, when am i going to find time to eat, poo, be vain, go shopping, watch movies and stuff, hang out with friends, go to church, have sabbath when i got 14 hours of uni a week not including homework and 8 hours of telemarketing and 4 students to tutor? and i don't want to drop any students after taking them on cos it'll be really unfair to them..

i thought uni was going to be a bludge?!

a short summary of my day:
9am - met charles at bus stop. charles need to take a dump. charles endure 40 min bus ride clenching his teeth and looking highly uncomfortable. xinni extremely suspicious everytime charles shifts. xinni worried charles dump in his pants. :p
10.00 - arrive at monash. charles run off to toilets at top speed. xinni makes way to hall. xinni and charles enter late.
11.00 - xinni extremely bored. xinni attempt to draw on charles and play the 'pepsicola' game (u guys remember that?) but charles boring. charles listen. xinni go to sleep.
12.00 - all line up to join monash law students society. xinni sees krispy kreme donuts and joins another society instead.
12.30 - finally get stupid sausage which was so thick i only ate half. walked around for the rest of time looking for free drink in campus center. decided to go on law library tour. decided to ditch law library tour.and looking for books. and stuff.

later. xinni goes to work.
xinni calls random guy. delivers same speech.
random guy ' you have a sexy voice, wanna go out? can i get your number?'
xinni ' no. can i get a time u want ur magazine delivered to you?'
random guy 'aw come on wheres your sense of adventure, why not?'
xinni ' im working'
random guy ' well i won't tell if you won't i'm really really good' (good at what, i didn't ask. don't think i want to know.)
(at this point xinni's mind is screeching HORNBAG)
xinni 'no its ok bye'


and that was my day :D

devil beside you*
我相信　找不到有比你更好的人
你心裡理想情人是幾分
是否也會有我的份?＊

it's funny how words unspoken are the ones that seem to speak the loudest.

Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

HAHAHAHAHHA what the heck :D
teachers are on strike tomorrow on vday! LOL. somehow the very thought of it made me crack up, since it's so unconceivable in singapore.

i don't care who with
i really want to go on the ferris wheeeeeel.


SOMEONE COME WITH ME *glares at melina* and cheapo, you earn three times as much as me T_T sif pay for you LOL. only if we're a lesbian couple. and i think not, because i'm pretty sure your heart is elsewhere *wink*

yay! my child in peru or wherever she is wrote me a letter.
it's so cool, i see her growing up from when she first wrote me. even her handwriting's better!
anyway, lol. the reason i'm up at 9.46am in the morning is coz..

i have no money o_0

LOL. yeh im gonna run some errands today and i was about to step out of the house and i realised that i have no money to do it. such is my sad life :p
zhenZHENzhen - whats ur driving instructors no. and how much does he charge?

sooner or later it's over..
i just don't wanna miss you tonight

the winds of change are in the air.
i just wish i didn't feel so apprehensive or scared.

when i reflect, i realize that the past 2 years haven't made me any braver about dealing with change. it's so true that the only constant in life is change. and yet.

i'm so losttt.

all i know is that, right now, sitting here, i have no clue about what i want. i have no sense of purpose or direction, and i feel blank and empty.

there's a horrible little niggling sense of.. frustration and a lack of fulfilment, and i feel so very unsettled.

when everythings made to be broken..
i just want you to know who i am.

the previous post is removed because, well.. i only want to remember the good times on this blog. any other times, i'll use it to rant and then delete it.

anyway.

my favourite song ever?

that's easy.

superman by five for fighting.

whenever i'm sad, whenever i'm happy, whenever i'm angry, whenever i'm hurt, whenever i need to calm down, whenever i'm troubled, i listen to this. more than any other song, it means so much to me. memories that come flooding back, from year 7, and through the years that followed.

and somehow, i've never managed to get sick of it.

anyway. valentine's day is around the corner.! one of my favourite holidays. i think everyone should celebrate it, whether or not they're attached or single. because it's about celebrating love, telling people around you that you cherish them. all around me, i see people getting ready to show someone else how much they love them, and it makes me feel so happy to be part of a world where we set aside a day just in honor of telling people around you how special they are to you. today i met a shop assistant who proudly told us her boyfriend had booked a dinner on the tram restaurant. didn't sound so special, but it was how she beamed when she said it, that made me realize that it was the effort her boyfriend went through to get a table there that made her so happy.

and this valentines day, someone i specially want honor and cherish is PRIS.

for all the times that you were there for me. i don't have to name them time by time, but between us we've shared a lot, bad and good. sometime this year, i thought we'd all grown apart because of.. well, so many reasons, but mainly because we were all moving in our different directions (no pun intended ;p) and somehow, i let myself get used to it and didn't bother to mend the growing gap, and i'm sososo sorry because now i realise that throughout the year, you must have had so many moments where you might've needed to talk to someone, and i wasn't fully there for you. you've always been the one who's wise and smart and knows what to do, and i took it for granted that sometimes you, even with your unshakeable faith, would feel lost and confused and need someone to be there. yesterday i realised, it doesn't matter how different we are, how sometimes we may not agree with the way each other thinks or deals with stuff, what matters is that, all along you've always been there to support me and not judge me, and for that i really am grateful from the bottom of my heart. i haven't been as big-hearted as you but i promise i'll try to be a better friend, even though you're going to be so far away. and you know that i will miss you sooooooooo much, your presence in my life, your psychotically loud laugh, and your beautiful voice that sings to God. but with all that, i know and understand the reasons you're going and i want to wish you all the best and a fresh start, where you can truly leave some things behind, and pursue a future thats shining brightly. and, i also wanted to tell you, i'll always be here for you.

who needs a guy when you have friends like that?

anyway, emo moment over.. this valentines' day, i'm spending it with my beloved single friends, and i'll make sure i treasure every single moment and store it up in my memory, because i have a feeling it's going to be the last valentine's i spend with all of them for awhile before everyone goes off or gets attached.
btw, to all of you - pris, glo, em, mich, mel, jan - you guys are the best friends anybody could ask for. *jan no dedication to you, cos im SURE YOU'LL BE COMING BACK FROM TASI, OR ELSE ;p

finally, it's time to remember the greatest love of all, the one that cleanses, forgives, heals, and nourishes.
the greatest love that anyone could ever know,
that overcame the cross and grave to find my soul..
and till i see you face to face, and grace amazing takes me home..
i'll trust in you..

'hi my name is jigglypuff xinni, i like to draw on people when they sleep.'

._.' *guilty face* yesterday night when my sister was sleeping i had the sudden urge to draw on her face, so i crept really close and grabbed the nearest fineliner and texted a nice little penis on her cheek.

... i didn't know that it wouldn't come out, plus i know she would definitely look in the mirror before school so i knew that there would be no chance she'd not know it was there, but anyway..

this morning i woke up to a roar and my sister swearing at me ._.' 'what the *&^% did u draw on my face its not *&%#ing coming out'

and then when i came home more abuse and swearing for a good half an hour or so ._.' i was gonna say sorry but on second thoughts after she threw a pen my way i decided to just shut up -_-' i'm not very good with apologies, neither am i good with them once about 15 mins has passed and the persons still yelling.

aaaaaaaaanyway, my plan to clean my room failed since this is what it looked like when i was done.
drawer! :)
other drawer!

yeah, that's right. i took out everything in an attempt to sort it but when i faced the mess i decided i couldnt do it and came back upstairs.
mother of all lobsters.
at aunty linda's house - miche, em, glo and i.

that was cny in a nutshell for me. today going up the escalators at bh, i realised that the steps were stained with blood.. alot of blood.
me: melina did u see the blood?
melina: it's not blood dumbarse.
.. when we got to the top of the escalator there was a lady on the floor and a lot of blood.. she was indeed bleeding profusely. i felt pretty sick, haven't seen that much blood for real on the floors ever. which i guess is a good thing that i felt something, since i would've thought watching csi and all that on a regular basis would have made me a cold-hearted bastard immune to gory scenes.

guess not!

met justin today :] he owes me 1) shoes and 2) ice-skating. lol.
lastly, the score on the kneeing competition is charles: 2 xinni: 4

=D coolies. happy cny guys

xx,
jigglypuff

i just want to see you, when you're all alone..
i just want to catch you, if i can..
i just want to be there, when the morning light explodes..
on your face, it radiates.. i can't escape..

i love you till the end.. :)

i just want to tell you, nothing you don't want to hear
all i want is for you to say ..
why don't you just take me where i've never been before?
i know you want to hear me catch my breath..

i love you till the end..

i just want to be there, when we're caught in the rain..
i just want to see you laugh, not cry..
i just want to feel you when the night puts on its cloak
i'm lost for words.. don't tell me
all i can say..

i love you till the end

such an awesome song!

anyway, it's officially cny eve, but the reason im sitting here instead of soaking up the festivities is that we're in melbourne, not singapore, where everywhere you turn there's the smell of bbq pork in the air and annoyingly tuneless clangy chinese new year music is played throughout the shopping centers and pretty much everywhere you go there are bright red lights and stuff and posters announcing cny sales. and everyone who's virtually older than you whips out a red packet to present you with. ($_$!!) here.. life goes on as normal, nothing so much as even twitches to signify that chinese new year is here. cny is sorta when i miss singapore the most.

as with the custom, today is a spring-cleaning day where everything has to be spick and span for the arrival of the lunar year..*groans* when i think about my room i can feel a headache coming on.. it's crazy. i have clothes to sort, makeup to organise, paraphernalia to clear.

so i suppose..i'd best get started. i'll take some photos of before and after, so you guys can see my room-cleaning progress :))

happy chinese new year everyone! for those of you in singapore, nibble an extra ba kwa and pineapple tart for me. for those here.. lol, happy cleaning your room and having reunion dinners. for me, i'm not so sure how our reunion dinner will differ from an everyday dinner.. since we don't have relos here.

PS. I WANNA PUPPY OR A KITTENNN I WANNA PUPPYYYY OR A KITTEN

rahh.. sometimes i just wanna scream --'
i cant be bothered anymore ._.' and no, its not the job im referring to.
its just so.. meaningless.

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change of topic, today i went to camberwell market for the first time (since it only opens 6am - 12pm sundays) and usually i have church. so. yeah. this morn i made a ginormous effort and dragged my sorry ass out of bed at 6am after about 4 hours of sleep.. speaking of that, ive been getting somewhere around 4 hours of sleep for the past few days and im surprised im still fully functional..

i know i know, i am superwoman right?

anyway yeh camberwell market is awesome! i love markets coz its always so bustley and lively, and the atmospheres just really light and there are bargains everywhere. now that i know what i can potentially achieve on sunday mornings, im motivated never to sleep in on sundays again. today was highly productive and left me emotionally very fulfilled. :D *eyes light up at the thought of cheap buys*

there were a couple of strange people, like one woman whom we tried to bargain with and shes like ' do you know where you are? camberwell market. no bargaining'
lol. tightarse.
there were a couple of interesting shops, like this shop that was playing this fully sick bong music.. just listening to it made me and jan crack up.

i also retained three blisters, as a result of walking in the wrong shoes (not on purpose, i just didnt think before i ran out the door this morn) and not only are they blisters, theyre like the mother of all blisters that have water inside . LOL. towards the middle of shopping i got annoyed and just decided, ah screw it and took my shoes off and walked around for the rest of it looking like a shoeless hobo.

church was just church and mediocre.

anyway. i finally watched 27 dresses!
''my favourite part of weddings is when the bride walks in, and everyone stands to look at her, but i look at the groom just to see the expression and love on his face.''

that makes sense, i wonder why i never thought of that :p

... i can't believe this.
i'm back in sales.
*&^%$#@ >=[
i am so sad right now. sales is like the singular most upsetting and frustrating thing ever. very 'cham' .. either way i get scolded by the boss or the people i call up -.-
*walks off sadly*