hi y'all !
about time i updated. for those who don't know, any posts i've done since i've arrived in singapore is at http://www.xinandjaninsg.blogspot.com/ ..hm it really should be xinandjanandboysinsg but anyway.
go check the photos out! we've been busy - beaching it up, posh high tea at the hyatt during christmas, kris kringling, shopping and make-overing the boys, and when we're not busy with all that having mass orgies in the bed..i joke. although i do have 2 humongous bruises on my legs from being mercilessly raped by my friends.
here's a couple of weird things about the guys.
david SNORES like.. major snoring.. like, snore SNORES so much that i cannot sleep.
hayden spoons. -_- nuff said about that, we kicked him to the end of the bed.
charles is a still sleeper but wakes his friends up in the morn by thrusting at them. ......

a few things -
first off, happy birthday to pris don't know if she reads this, but i couldn't get online on the 21st..1000 sorries i didn't wish you. hope you're having fun in melb.!

and a merry merry christmas to the rest of you out there! :) i am well aware that this blog's been half dead but hopefully there are still people out there who care about what i'm doing :p

singapore has been really fun. didn't manage to meet up with all my friends here but it's ok, i'm sure i'll get to do it again soon. on the other hand being a 'tourist' with the boys is pretty cool as well, cos i went to the night safari for the first time in my life (i know, i don't deserve to be singaporean) and experienced what it was like to be well and truly ripped off.. =(

slightly embarrassing moment during the night safari when i screamed LOOK! and pointed at a shadowy bunch of figures in the distance only to realise they were humans .. --

have semi-recovered from the awful sunburn in thailand (chest is no longer peeling). YAY.
the past 2 days have been our rest-days, i met up with yan and kah hong yesterday and watched i am legend and i am still upset that will smith's character did not hook up with the other female lead. anyhow, today i slept off all the crazy activities and woke up at 12 (zoo and night safari combined was definitely about 12 hours of walking or something) and have since been getting ready for my cousin's wedding tonight.

yesterday night i also went to the no signboard restaurant (what a weird name for a restaurant) and had a very sumptious meal.. so sumptious that it burnt a hole in my dad's pocket :(
little girl next to me : are you a freethinker?
me: no.. i'm christian.
her *after pausing to consider this* : are you a freethinker?
me: why do you keep asking that?
her: cos i think you're not christian.

kids say the darnednest things.

lol. dagger through my heart. i realised i haven't exactly been the most faithful in doing daily devotions and attending church. =(

glo, i bought a daniel yam dress! =D
ya ok, i don't know what i want but i trust your taste, also a reminder to REMEMBER TO BRING MY COAT BACK OR I WILL MURDER YOU =D!
have a safe trip and fun time in europe!!

am turning 17 soon and i'm not excited for some reason.

I AM SO EXCITED JDEAJKAHDAKSHDSAKDHAKDHSJKADH!!
IN 3 DAYS . JAN AND I WILL BE COMBING THE LENGTHS OF ORCHARD ROAD.
I WILL TUCK INTO MY FIRST AUTHENTIC SINGAPOREAN KOPITIAM BREAKFAST WITH SOFT-BOILED EGGS WITH LOADS OF PEPPER AND OOZEY GOOEY KILLINEY KAYA TOAST AND MAYBE SOME TEH-O OR A MILOSAUR. AND THEN I SHALL GO SHOP MY HEART OUT, STARTING FROM FAR EAST PLAZA TO SCOTS TO TANGS TO LUCKY PLAZA TO WISMA ATRIA (FOOD REPUBLIC HOKKIEN MEE AND FAMOUS AMOS!! AND SHOES IN ISETAN!!) TO TAKA TO HEEREN TO CINELEISURE(FALSE EYELASHES!!) TO CENTERPOINT AND PLAZA SINGAPURA!!
I SHALL WEAR THONGS - > EASY TO TRY ON SHOES AND SHORTS AND T-SHIRT.. EASY TO GET OUT OF!! MORE CONVENIENCE TRYING ON CLOTHES!!!
I NEED AN EZLINK CARD AND A STARHUB PREPAID NUMBER!!
I SWEAR I AM ONLY BRINGING LIKE 2 OUTFITS OR SOMETHING AND MY MAKEUP, AND THONGS, SO DON'T JUDGE ME COZ I REALLY NEED THE LUGGAGE SPACE.

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*HYPERVENTILATES* I AM SO GLAD FOR NEANY.

Twenty four oceans
Twenty four skies
Twenty four failures Twenty four tries
Twenty four finds me
In twenty-fourth place
Twenty four drop outs
At the end of the day
Life is not what I thought it was Twenty four hours ago
Still I’m singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
And I’m not who I thought I was twenty four hours ago
Still I’m singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
Twenty four reasons to admit that I’m wrong With all my excuses still twenty four strong
See I’m not copping out not copping out not copping out
When You’re raising the dead in me
Oh, oh I am the second man
Oh, oh I am the second man now
Oh, oh I am the second man now
And You’re raising these twenty four voices
With twenty four hearts
With all of my symphonies
In twenty four parts
But I want to be one today
Centered and true
I’m singing Spirit take me up in arms with You You’re raising the dead in me
Oh, oh I am the second man
Oh, oh I am the second man now
Oh, oh I am the second man now
And You’re raising the dead in me
I want to see miracles, see the world change Wrestled the angel, for more than a name
For more than a feeling
For more than a cause
I’m singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
And You’re raising the dead in me
Twenty four voices With twenty four hearts With all of my symphonies In twenty four parts.
I’m not copping out. Not copping out. Not copping out.

maurice's farewell today brought back alot of memories for me.
despite the fact that the photos on the slideshow gloria made were cringe-worthy and very unglamorous.. it brought me back to the moments from two years ago. as i sat there listening to chris sing 24 by switchfoot, i glanced around the room, taking in the faces that i wouldn't see for very long. memorizing the voices, imprinting the scene in my mind. and as my gaze swept the room, all of a sudden i saw priscilla from two years ago, laughing with her big trademark flower in her hair, full of .. a very different sort of enthusiasm. there was like a light that lit up tonight whilst 24 was played, something she glowed with that i hadn't seen very often.. or maybe not in the past year or so. my eyes turned to gloria, and i saw in a flash, us in year 10, giggling over nothing. and maybe tonight, sharing the same sentiments as we collapsed into giggle after giggle over the littlest and bestest things. perhaps no one else shall read my mind quite so clearly as her, because i only have to catch her eye to share a smile over a thought nobody else will know. i saw michelle, a new face in my life this year that has brought me alot of joy and encouragement, as well as much-needed company in family gatherings;) i saw em, someone who..lately i haven't seen much, but i know i will never stray too far from, i saw tracy,jess,zhen,sarah, new friends i only really got to know this year who each have played a part in making this year the special memory it is.. and it's gone by in a flash. loads more faces that have become a blur in the happy pictures in my mind.

so much time has passed. the moments've slipped by without us reaching out to grasp it.
and now that leaves us at a crossroads, each taking different paths.
where does that leave us?