Take a deep breath, and let your mind soar

it's been quite awhile since i posted.. so long that i've forgotten the satisfaction of posting. i can't begin to recount my past few days because it's been a blur that's rushed past without leaving a trace. i've been so tired that i sat in class and blanked out without even realizing it, only to come back when someone asked me a question and i had completely no clue what it was about. beginning to feel rather run down and in need of some love.. hence the recent m&m consumption :P

i miss u guys in singapore! there weren't many problems that i couldn't escape with a little retail therapy at orchard road and some sticky photos and cheap movies with giant lido popcorn buckets of sweet and salty (God, i am so sweet popcorn deprived). - i haven't been shopping since .. term started. and it's eating away at me.. believe me, i've had this gaping chasm that is yet to be filled. i keep telling myself i can't do year 12 over again, but it's so hard, honest.. i've never had to be so strict with myself since well.. never.

its my first friday night off since term started too. such a strange feeling that i'm at a loss of what to do, only that i know i wanna watch fobby series for a ridiculous amount of time curled up with a soft toy under a blanket. or even just go to sleep for a long, long time. or go shopping for nothing in particular, or watch a movie and not once think about what else i have to do. or go through a day without that nagging weight on my shoulders of what's left to be done. or listen to music and stretch out and feel every muscle in my body relax. or have the freedom to do whatever the heck i feel like doing and damn well enjoy it.

is it just me, or do i sound really really run down..?

or it could be the fact that i'm pmsing major, and it feels like my uterus is falling.

it really really helped today to receive a letter from my maid, whom i haven't seen in more than 2 years, who barely speaks english and writes like a kinder child.. but made the effort to send a letter all the way here. it touched my heart to see that she'd remembered us as the kids she'd have to pick up from school and cook and clean and care for. and it was even nicer to get an email from yan, cos once in awhile i go through bouts of insecurity about who i'm still even friends with in singapore.

so even though i've had a draining week and i feel like i've been tumbled in a washing machine, it's all these little things that make it better, knowing that people care.

with that, i declare tonight chick-flick me night. i'm going to watch as many chick flicks as i feel like, give my hormonal emotions full run and just take a break. oh, i also need to put up some photos but that can wait till i get them.

Friday, March 16, 2007 at 12:50 AM

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