Take a deep breath, and let your mind soar

edit. i forgot to add a couple of things.
does anyone know a piano piece titled 'takumi' something or other? it's been stuck in my head.. the kind of melody where you open a toybox and it fills your mind with the feeling of cherubic innocence..
anyway, aaron had a deep and meaningful talk with me. i came home from tuition and he was already waiting at the kitchen to talk to me. and i didn't know what else to tell him apart from 'maybe she's the wrong person, it's the wrong time, trust in God, He'll find the right person for you' yadda yadda you know? i felt bad saying it in a sense because i'm a hypocrite.. i can't trust in God sometimes in my own life and here i was, glibly and blatantly telling aaron to do so. amidst the guilt and sleepiness (i was sooo tired and aaron went around in circles for ages).......... but at the end of it i didn't know how to make him feel better. i guess he's in a rut of self-pity.. ugh.

you know the feeling where.. it seems like your stuck in a moment in time and you can't move either way? and the whole world's just rushing by in a whirl..

..phwoar! feeling rather surreal now, just can't get my head around the past week. been going through every day monotonously without giving it much thought. my brain feels like it's gone on a holiday and is 'temporarily unavailable'

on second thoughts i'm a much happier girl now that we've moved on from trigonometry to complex numbers in specialist maths because i don't know how much more i could've taken of that nonsense. :( i swear i'm getting dumber by the year.. or maybe the questions are getting harder ;)

so like thursday ms shale calls 4 of us into her office for career counselling.

that woman is brilliant, i tell ya.
melina : i want to do nutrition!
shale *enthusiastic voice* : nutrition! there are excellent nutrition courses everywhere! especially in deakin and latrobe! (deakin and latrobe are .. like the kind of unis where if ur parents are strictly asian they would disown you for going there)
shale *brightly*: with a nutrition degree.. you can be a.... nutritionist!
the whole room fell silent as we pondered this abstract piece of information.
...no shit u become a nutritionist if u do nutrition.

then she moves on to me..
me : i want to do commerce/law at melbourne uni.
shale *grave tone* : you know its extremely hard and you have to get a top GPA to transfer into law postgraduate? why not try deakin or latrobe?
then she proceeded to talk about deakin and latrobe for a full 20 minutes straight. when she finished..
shale: so now if i gave u choice what uni would u go to?
me :.......................................uh. melbourne.
i can't describe the look on her face except it was the greasiest greasy she could give me.

anyhow. i had a stupid moment trying to turn on my sister's mp3.
when i pressed the button it said 'HOLD ON!!' (no joke with the exclaimation marks)
i was like.. 'WHOA what an angry mp3! maybe its telling me to wait.'
so i waited
and waited
and waited
..and nothing happened.
so i pressed it again.. and 'HOLD ON!!' came up.
so i decided maybe it meant Hold the On button for longer..
and i held it
and waited
and waited
and waited
and nothing happened.

then melina who was watching me all this time waste like five mins trying to turn on an mp3 cracks up and says ' your HOLD BUTTON'S on you loser!' ..duhhh :(

anyway it's been such a hot week :( very tiring.. but it was refreshing to talk to sherwin the other night, albeit for a short while. even reading his email was fun.
i gotta say you never find another character like him.
sher, i don't even know what you are.. except maybe a snag lol ;) the most apathetic snag i ever had the priviledge of knowing.

anyway i went over to jan's homestay after tuition last night and it was overrun in fobs. fobs fobs and more fobs, very.. fobland. tiffany grabbed my arm and whispered 'save me' and looked very threatened by the number of fobs. (fobs are overseas people who have trouble speaking english) they were so funny cos they say everything in a shout LOL.. and they flirt with each other funny.

there was this sleazy guy who admitted to having dominatrix sex =.= i was so shocked. whoa. beneath that harmless exterior fobs are so horny. lol..

sigh. i wanna watch music & lyrics or deja vu or notes on a scandal.

Friday, February 16, 2007 at 5:33 PM

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