I cannot take my mind off 7AM tomorrow. God knows what I'll be like exactly a year from now. I can only hope that a year from now, at 7AM i will be crying of happiness, not disappointment. Should stop lazing around so that it actually happens. I don't think it's fully sunk in just yet, because I feel really blank and empty, somewhat hollow. Feeling kinda lost and alone at the moment. Like if someone were to knock into me, I'd respond with a resounding clonk that echoes. Am listening to Jay Chou now for a calming effect..~Everytime I'm on the verge of being unable to deal with things, Jay Chou is always playing. Of course when I think back to alot of my most memorable moments this year, I vaguely remember Jay Chou singing in my head. I'm just trying to distract myself now. Don't think I'll sleep much tonight. I don't think anyone in my family knows why I'm so agitated and jumpy today.. don't really want to tell them either before I find out anyway. Honestly, I don't know what to expect.. please, please, please let it be good. i put in so much effort for psych, more than i ever have for anything, but i know i could have done more.. i can only pray that what i've done is enough. i'll be crushed if the biggest effort i've ever made to achieve something doesn't do well.. do me a favour, if i don't want to say what i got, don't push it. and i think, if i don't do well, i'm going to drown my sorrows and forget about it awhile, and maybe when i'm ready to deal with it just dig a hole and burrow myself in there for a month until i feel better.
...don't mind me, i'm just rambling. very needy for some comfort now.
how bout i tell you some of my most memorable moments this year.. or maybe not, some are abit private to be shared. :]
