Here I am, blogging again..
After consuming an excessive amount of chocolate again (it's something with me and periods i think, whenever i have my period i tend to eat chocolate like easter bunny) I can't get to sleep, my mind is racing and i'm thinking very very hard about some important things now *sigh* i've been poking at this for hours now, and still no lightbulb of enlightenment.
Two more days to china. I spent Christmas indoors packing my bags and cleaning up my room. Mess accumalates when you're too tired and lazy to put things back in the right places once in awhile, so i paid for that little error with a coupla hours worth of cleaning. if dustbunnies exist, there would have been a few playing happily on my dresser. :P
Quite excited about the trip now. Last year I did a whole countdown starting from nearly three weeks to
--------* continued a couple of days later..
nearly forgot about this draft. in a few hours i'll be on the plane to china! hopefully this trip will help me grow both spiritually and in my relationships with others. i don't really know what to expect just yet. last year i had all this enthusiasm and energy, and i even dreamt about the trip several times (that's how excited i was!) but it didn't turn out anything like i thought it would be. rather, it was a whole eye-opening experience. when i thought i'd seen it all, i saw something else that pulled at me. so this time, i'm trying to keep an open mind.. even though we're revisiting some places and dog meat and insects won't horrify me anymore.. well.. the surprise element is lost in any case.. bring it on! :P
don't really know what i can bring to this trip, other than chinese speaking. i suppose that's my main contribution to it, but even then it seems puny coz of how little i speak chinese now. watching smiling pasta makes me wanna go to taiwan and find an 'ah zhe' for myself! it's kinda stupid how every single time i watch a tb taiwanese series with the SAME kind of actor, makes me go all gooey and soft inside.. :]
had a long talk last night with gloria before falling asleep. i realised that i'm entirely not sure of where i'm going, what i'm doing, and i don't really want to figure it out too. i think i'm more content and secure just leaving it in God's hands.. and trusting that whatever happens will happen for His reasons. that kind of faith is pretty hard, it's like taking a blind leap when the road brings you to a fork, what do you pick?
i spent the morning printing out photos and organising my music on the mp3. got an email that says our internal flight from Guangzhou to Guiyang will be delayed by 12 hours or so due to weather conditions.. i am SO looking forward to being sore, stiff, tired, overfed from the first flight to wander around Guangzhou airport doing nothing for 12 hours.. so i brought one of my lit books for next year (btw, having second thoughts now coz everyone seems to say that lit is really hard to score.. noo pleaseeee :( i suppose i'll have to work extra hard now. it shouldn't be too much difference since i like it right?) so yeah, for some reassurance i brought one of my lit books and the driving book to learn so when i come back i can take my L's and start driving asap :D
just counted that we'll have so many in-flight meals, it's not funny. there's nothing much to do on flights except pig out and watch movies while sitting on ur bum for the whole time.. and they always load u full with refreshments, more refreshments, coke, breakfast lunch dinner in full three course or so. geebus. we're gonna sink the plane before even getting there -_-''
i haven't showered for 2 days already. christmas period this year was so cold and dreary, raining everyday and all. didn't do much for the atmosphere of christmas but it made it colder.. hmm i made pasta yesterday haha.. all that watching smiling pasta made me hungry for pasta. on impulse i grabbed a bottle of nandos peri peri sauce and doused my pasta with it and guess what :P YUM. heh. perhaps there's a future chef in me! i beg to differ what zuning said >.< - according to him my kids in the future will be like 'eh?' when i dish out regular servings of pineapple and chocolate with everything hahah.. :P sounds like something i'd do.
