relatively emo entry. skip if you cbb.

this morning at around four, i woke up from.. a really weird dream. i dreamt that my piano was in the fish and chips shop where i work (?!) and peter, the new manager sold it. i was reaaaally upset.. and i started crying and shouting at peter. and then i quit and threw my hat at him. (the ugly one)

i know i'm weird. anyway, after that dream saga, the pastor of my church came to bless our house. i could hear my dad sigh and shuffle his feet during the prayer. then we dropped my sister off at a friend's house and went to shoppo where i finally got my photos! and i sent in a few more (okay about 80) for developing. then we went to look for curtains and blah blah.

here's the.. emo bit. i quarrelled with my mum (again) because she always thinks i'm exploiting my sister and i'm treating her like crap or something.. and yes, i do admit i take advantage of her niceness sometimes, but when it comes down to it i really do love her to bits even though it may not show very much.. and my mum really thinks that i exploit her and use her and she tries to "protect" my sister by picking on me sometimes.. (agreed by both my sister and i) sigh.. it's really really hard to see someone's heart, know their good and bad and still love them for it.. that's why i say my sister has a big heart.. she knows i'm stubborn and bad tempered and lazy and unreasonable and selfish and jealous and the list goes on and she's still nice to me. yes, i'm very thankful for my sister.

and.. it hurts a bit that my mum would think i'm so mean to her.. there's alot of things she doesn't see.. and she just assumes.

anyway..some things you find out, you can't imagine it.. and then you can't imagine not having known, but you wish you hadn't found out in the first place. makes sense? changes your whole perspective on things, makes you realize how things on the inside you never really know from what you see on the outside.

did alot of thinking today without even consciously doing it.. school's starting again and it feels like i haven't had much of a break. in the end, there's more things to think about.. i'm scared about something and it's not something i can say.

._.

i came across a prayer list i wrote last year. :D so i decided i shall make another one now! it's a busy busy time and i got lots of things on my mind to pray for, but sometimes i fall asleep before getting around to it..

my night-time prayers go like: "Dear God........."*silence*........zzzzzzzzzz

lol :D so here goes, my prayer list. feel free to pray for what's in it :p

- my grandparents get their six-month visa for visit.

- smooth transition moving house and that problems will be fixed and repaired and we get to complete the move soon. (esp.. dampness problem in my room :( )

- that i'll be able to catch up on schoolwork when i go back, not having touched any these holidays.

- tracy & tim's family for a smooth rehabilitation process for their dad.

- caris's health stays good and she continues to get better and better.

- em for guidance, strength, care and lots of love. oh and a job.

- prisc for wisdom and strength on a difficult day.

- isaac for .. insurance stuff to be settled.

- jonadab for promos coming up.

- ray to get a job.

- all my singapore sec 4's having O levels soon.. clear minds and discipline. best of luck guys.

that's all i think..

gabillionth post in a day, but i just had to write (type?) it. before i say it, for my birthday if you don't know what to get me, pick between makeup or developing some photos for me (and of course the ones that i look nice in la) haha :D

coz i've always wanted to make a huge photo collage.. now that i'm getting my own room, i'd like to do that. only i'm a photowhore which means i've got 3249871324 photos, and many i'd like to develop. also, it'd be a huge project that takes alot of time and effort.. anyone willing to help let me know.

so in the midst of packing and moving, i unearthed a small plastic bag of photos. and as always, excitement shot through me as i wondered what could be in the bag. i pulled out shots from many years back, if i'm correct - my first visit to Australia with my family, grandparents and extended family.

the faces were so youthful and energetic, and though it was so long ago i can remember the moment like it was yesterday. my grandpa stood tall and erect, my grandma had a mass of black curly hair, my mum and dad were both fashion disaster victims of the early nineties, and my aunts were practically peas in pods, they looked so alike.

granted, i was horrified at how i looked when i was young. i was chubby, had a classic bowl haircut, bespectacled as a result of being a hardcore bookworm, and awkward and ungainly. but as soon as i got used to it, i saw the emotion in the photos, me and my younger sister hugging each other and grinning.. us in matching shirts and with the exact same confused expression directed at the camera.. mum and dad carrying us on their shoulders.. grandpa and grandma standing proudly beside us..

for those precious few moments we were brought back to, the last week's stress of house moving was forgotten as we all slipped into our own private reminiscence.. how i wished, with all my heart that my aunt hadn't died and had moved here with us.. and that we could have our grandparents here again..

and inside, i wondered.. where have all those times gone to? where's the kinship and the love and the affection that was so openly displayed when we were younger? these days, i don't even want to spend time with my family anymore.. and we hardly get along.

and for that i'm sorry.. but things have changed so much.

hopefully things'll change for the better.

PHOTOS
i was clearing out my room and i found some old photos.

last winter, glo me & prisci.
zhimiiiing the unwilling photo taker i had to force to smile :p
jon & me.
me & adder at maccas singapore :D

AND SOME .. NOT SO OLD PHOTOS.

we do look a little bit alike -.-
well NOT ANYMORE! take that everyone who says we look alike :p
:D again!
:D its.. christmastime? lol.
quote em : 'i look weird, gloria looks evil and you look cheeky. good match. '
awww. <3

HOW MUCH HAVE YOU CHANGED?

3 YEARS AGO TODAY

How old were you?:
# 12

What grade year were you in?:
# year seven.. :p yep, good old year 7.

Where did you go to school?:
# mayflower secondary school

Where did you work?:
# lol.. work?

Where did you live?:
# braddell view in SINGAPORE!

How was your hair style?:
# loong.. shapeless. lol. center parting... i did not just type that.

Did you wear braces?:
# nah

Did you wear glasses?:
# yes -.-

Who was your best friend?:
# woo.. erm.. my best friends then..? it was linda, aderyl, zhiming, steph, aaron.. and then.. ellice and yan, and denny.. and maybe sherwin too? oh and obviously from primary school ANKITA and GARENE ;D i can proudly declare that i'm still friends with most of these people.. and still pretty close.

Who was your celebrity crush?:
# orlando bloom and oliver james. always liked them :D

How many piercings did you have?:
# i got four done that year, and 2 the following year.

What was your favorite band/group?:
# jay chou and *mumbles* britneyspears haha.. no la.. i can't really remember.. :p

What was your worst fear?:
# insects, and my grandparents dying.

Had you smoked a cigarette yet?:
# no.

Had you gotten drunk/high yet?:
# no. :p

Had you been to a real party yet?:
# yeh.

Had your heart broken?:
# nooooo.

Had broken someones heart?:
# not that i know of..(ok i think this is coming to the conclusion that i had no life.. er.. i was 12)



LETS SEE WHAT YOU ARE NOW !!!!!

How old are you?:
# 15

Where do you go to school?:
# balwyn high school

Where do you work?:
# belmore fish & chippery.

Where do you live?:
# sutton.. no.. harcourt street(well in a few days), doncaster, melbourne..

How is your hair style?:
# longish, and curly.

Do you have braces?:
# thankfully no.

Do you wear glasses?:
# only at home and when i desperately can't find my contacts. lol.

Who is your best friend?:
# the girls lah! :D

Still talk to any of your old friends?:
# YES :D

Who is your celebrity crush?
# jerry yan....i know.. '......' at myself too.

How many piercings now?
# 2. i got bored.

How many tattoos?:
# none lar.

What is your biggest fear?:
# haha.. i'm still terrified of insects but i'm not sure that's my biggest fear anymore. and there are a few more big fears..

Have you smoked a cigarette yet?:
# nope.

Have you gotten drunk or high?:
# nope.

Have you been to a real party?:
# yeh -.-

Has your heart been broken?:
# no.

Have you broken someones heart?:
# i don't think so. :p

i think i never realised how soothing my weekly dose of CSI is for me. it's a time to kick back, relax, and watch unfortunate people die gory deaths and smart sciencey people poke into it, all enthusiasm for doing justice and all that. if i were sciencey in any way, that's where i'd be heading. forensic science.

how come the careers everyone seems to want is so realistic and achievable whereas what i want seems so far out of reach, it's practically impossible? i wanted to be a princess, a vet, a psychiatrist, a forensic scientist, a journalist.. blah blah.

why can't i want to be like an optometrist or a nurse or something.

i just came back from watching the churchies play like an hours' straight of fifa world cup on ps2. (at least i think that's what it is, if its a console game?) and i nearly fell asleep. after finishing, for lack of anything better to do someone suggested truth or dare.

i reaaally.. don't like that game. for one, there's alot of things i'd rather keep to myself.. and i'd like it to stay that way, so for that reason.. sometimes there's things people don't know about me that they think they might. everyone's got their secrets and i'm entitled to mine.. coz when you tell someone a 'secret' it hardly stays secret for long, whether it's through your fault or not.. why even take the risk?

it wouldn't be so bad if i were a pro liar, but when you're playing in a group and your best friends are playing right beside you.. (and they KNOW when you're lying).. pftt.. it's even more embarrassing being caught lying that admitting a bad 'truth' i reckon.

and clearly there's juicy gossip that everyones hungry to derive from you. (hell, even i'd perk up at the chance to get someone's deepest darkest confession to a question i really wanted to know) here's the even more awkward thing.. the questions people are itching to ask and hanging in the air, but not sure if they're crossing the line by asking... and the flinch of people when the spinner in the middle points that uncomfortable finger at them.. and you know immediately they're anticipating all the possible questions they'd get and thinking of how to answer.

so that was how it was, the uncomfortable too-personal questions hanging in the air, the barely-there attempt to cover it up with a lighter, sillier question.. and a whole unsettled feeling in general. everyone had to go once truth or dare. whoever came up with this game is pretty smart. eitherways, you're subject to the other person's devious intents. i was really glad when it was over... if i really had to choose between not playing and not knowing anyone's secrets in exchange for baring mine.. then.. yeah, i'd rather not know. no doubt about it, i'd lie through my teeth if i had to. smiling, even.

some things are best left to yourself and nobody else.

for that matter.. don't always be too sure you know a person.. coz you might be shocked one day.

anyway, i had to get a lift off someone again.. and i'm always getting lifts off people coz my parents aren't too willing to send me places. which i highly inconvenient for other people.. man i want my car and my P's already.

rawr at all the bad things in the world, the cutesy posers and the end of sex and the city.

the past few days have been a whirlwind of cleaning, painting, sanding, fixing up wall-cracks, ripping up floorboards and planks, and people wandering in and out. i can barely even get up the moment i sit down, i'm so tired. these holidays i don't think i've slept past 12, and that's practically criminal (for holidays). this morning my dad came into the room, slapped my face (no not your TV drama slap scene but a not-so-hard impatient slap nevertheless) and told me to wake up. i was pissed off and tired, and i went back to sleep. half an hour later he came in and hollered at the top of his lungs. we knew that tone, so we scrambled out of bed with our eyes wide shut and got around to starting the housework. i don't really know when it became a routine, but nowadays i'm the Laundry Girl.. not so pleasant coz there's laundry to be taken out every morning and guess who steps into the freezing laundry room and hops out feeling unpleasantly chilled while you're barely out of the morning-bed-snugness?

and whenever i see my room, i feel like crying. i was really excited about being able to do everything the way i liked and finally having some personal space. trust me, people who already have their own room won't fully appreciate the feeling. but imagine having no proper place to do things and keep things and having to move things about everywhere when people need the furniture you're using. i thought that this move would be really good coz i got my own room and it's pretty sizeable too, but now there's all these water marks from water seeping under the concrete floor (which they discovered after they ripped up my floorboards). if i carpet it, there's a high chance my carpet will turn mouldy and disgusting after a couple of years. fixing a proper timber floor is out of the question because the house is already built. building a floating floor means i can't get a carpet done, and the water will damage the wooden flooring anyway. to fix the seepage problem we have to call in specialists and that will take time. after they do whatever to my room, then we have to get flooring/carpet people.

so eitherways i can't move in by next week.

and i still don't have all my furniture. the bedframe, bedside tables and tallboy's ordered. no bed mattress, no quilt, no pillows, no curtains, no wardrobe, no shelf, no study table or chair.

i wanna tear my hair out, i'm so upset.

i have exams soon too and i need a proper place to study. imagine studying amidst renovations or something, i think i'll go nuts.

work now pisses me off hardcore. jan and mel both quit. the new manager's a shithead with the meanest attitude and absolutely no idea about what he's doing. i had to endure glares and hassling from every customer who didn't get their food after the promised ten to fifteen minute wait. i had to clean up his mistakes, apologize to customers who gave me more shit, and look for tickets or food that he'd missed out. he completely ignores making orders chronologically, and he eats whatever mistakes he makes. YES, eats. he cuts down on most hygiene measures and half the time he's busy eating or drinking.

i'm so quitting next year. i can't do much with working one day per week anyway. maybe i'll look for work somewhere else. it's really sad because the old owners built up a really good reputation for the shop around the area, and now this new manager's going to run it to the ground with the crap food he burns and his lack of system.

house troubles, work troubles, and it's that time in my dad's visit when everyone's just beginning to tiptoe around. with all the house stress and stuff, he's gotten even crankier and harder to live with. my mum pretty much annoys me - dictating me endlessly, telling me to do this and that for MY room.. which she thinks is best.

^%$#

i haven't been shopping very much. i'm missing a four day only warehouse sale which i'd planned to go to since last month. no homework or study done either, which means i'll be really rusty when i get back to school. haven't seen my friends in ages.

haven't had homecooked dinner in ages. haven't watched csi this week. haven't done anything. painted till my back and neck hurt. my legs are numb and my nails are chipped and raw from holding the painting pole up. my fingers have wooden splinters in them and paint marks. i'm so tired every day and i dont get to sleep in.

:( i need cheering up.

HOLIDAYS
i'm tired and lazy so this post will mainly be photos. yesterday was a wonderful bright sunny day :D so me and jan went to bridge road. weather was glorious. first beautiful spring day in ages. 24 degree day, whoo. :D suntanning here i come! i hate my pasty skin. i look like a char siew bao.
me and jan! it's the season where the sunnies are out again. note that neither of us are wearing makeup coz we both couldnt be stuffed ._. my face felt so naked all day. oh, i was wearing sunnies to cover my small eyes. :p

we walked around and ate food.
fantabulous summer food, foccacias and wedges. they were fat and crispy in sour cream and sweet chilli. YUM.
then i had a final house inspection. i walked into my room and i was like WHOA. taking up one huge space was this ugly white cupboard. i was like..... THAT IS GOING. i am not having that eyesore in my room. and so we tried to jiggle the cupboard and wtf, it was glued to the wall. since when did people glue cupboards to walls? so i flung the doors open in frustration and even more wtf, the cupboard had no back. the wall was its back. ..............i knew immediately that the past tenants were definitely asian. talk about cheap.

then i went to work with peter who's an absolute &^%$#.. i mean, pain in the arse. he's the new manager and knows absolutely nothing about what he's doing. he burns food, makes unnecessary trouble, is forgetful, and blames people for his mistakes. that's right. in addition, he's lazy and a know-it-all, and.. well.. absolutely worst work attitude ever. he made us mop and do all these things we never had to do before.. and yeah. if things keep up i'm gonna quit. i ran around correcting all his mistakes. he even made us stay extra half an hour to clean and mop, which we didn't have to do before, and i don't even know if we're getting paid.. while he sat there and ate dimsims which he jibbed a customer of. WHAT THE HECK.

i hate his guts already and i have to work on friday again. most tiring work ever, cos now i do soo much more.

today i got paint for my house. long, tedious, boring. but it'll be nice and green themed. then i went to chapel to meet isaac after his work thing.
we watched monster house.. and these.. 3D glasses make us look hot ._.
TGI Friday's .. and he ordered chicken fingers. *snort* what a big kid.
:D

i got my liquid eyeliner from MAC, finally. when i walked in this SUPER HOT like OH MY GAWWWSH HOT guy.. (and i hardly ever am attracted to aussies) comes up to me and i fully blanked out while he told me the difference between all the eyeliners. his eyelashes were like 238412947 cm long and i couldnt stop staring. BABY BLUE eyes, sexy voice. GASSSP.

i almost hyperventilated cos he applied eyeliner on my eyes and his face was SO CLOSE to mine.

and i walked out and moaned.. SO CUTE... SO GAY !! =(

...yes, you heard right. he's GAY. GAYEST BOY I EVER SAW. but working in MAC, what can u expect. HOT though. :(

i have a crush on a gay MAC boy.

i have discovered the remedy to my chocolate withdrawal symptoms.
oh my gawwwsh it is delicious :P ok so maybe yesterday i was a tad feeling down and so therefore i naturally headed to my junk food drawer. well really, chocolate since i don't take much other types of junk food.

and then i opened it and it hit me that no more chocolate! it's a new phase in my life. =
i was still upset though and i wanted comfort. and then jan gave me the idea of ICE CREAM!

:D so i happily flung open the freezer and saw that sitting inside. gorgeous. never been so happy to see anything before.

(joking lah)

but it is sumptous, creamy and chunky. CHUNKY you hear? most cookie and cream ice creams have miniscule fragments of cookies in them. this one, u can chew on the cookie chunk, that's how big it is. generous.

anyway i had one bowl this morning for breakfast cos i couldnt be bothered eating it yesterday night - too cold. no more for a while though, coz i don't really like ice cream that much.

i hear you say - but WAIT! isn't cookies and cream chocolate?

._. gimme a break lah, i'm already warding off chocolate very determinedly. cookies and cream hardly counts. it's not like theres pure concentrated chocolate in it. and its not even really chocolate flavoured! it tastes like cookies.

........... SO THERE.

PHOTOS FROM KARA'S :D

rawr.. house moving is such a tiring business. i'm so drained after an afternoon's worth of scoping out lightings, carpets, furnitures, etc. it felt like i was playing sims for a bit, until it sort of sank it that there's no cheats to use to make yourself unlimitedly rich and that everything costs a bomb. then i realized how much poorer (well not poor in general terms) but comparatively, since moving here. there's always a second consideration now of whether it's affordable..

i realize that i sound like a really spoilt singaporean girl who's not exactly used to not having everything i want, but that's pretty accurate coz i usually wheedle my way into getting the things i want. say, striking a deal with my dad in exchange for good results or something. i'm pretty good at bargaining when it comes down to it, but today i kinda realized that it's not a matter of bargaining, it's that we don't really have the resources anymore to facilitate meeting most of my wants.

and that reaaaally sucks, the feeling of disappointment. (i think that's another of my fears, being disappointed) so i never really like to place too high hopes on anything (or anyone, for that matter) coz i don't like not being in control of the outcome of things and being let down in terms of expectations.

at the end of it, i'm a spoilt determined stubborn person who is reaaaaaally unaccustomed to not getting my way ._.

i saw so many things i really liked today, and the excitement of it was overwhelming coz it's the first time i'm having my own room and space and i just want it to be something that i can proudly say i decorated and chose everything for. i even had this idea of getting a huge board and collaging a gazillion photos on it and putting it on the wall. then i thought about all the costs of developing all that photos, and that aspiration sorta went down the drain. there's so many things i need coz my room is good-sized, and at the moment we're looking for bedframes, bedside tables (those are dispensable), a wardrobe, mirror, study desk, chair, shelves.. (which leads to the thought that i need a desktop soon), a vanity table.. not to mention those little decoration things that personalize the room. oh, and those don't include carpeting, curtains, paint, quilts..........

which of course means MORE MONEY..

and i'm not the only person who has wants.

THE WANTS ARE NEVER ENDING and the resources are rapidly draining.

i wish i had an active role in determining my income..coz when i do, i'll make sure i won't be disappointed. or at least minimally disappointed, but not sad.

RAR. i give up. at the end of the day, i should remember that such things are material temptations, and that i should really be chasing spiritual riches.

yup. so whatever i get.. i'll take.. and learn to deal with it.. until i'm in charge ;)

yumcha = fun and very good value for money ._.

it worked out to $15 per person, which was pretty darn good considering the amount of food we had (26 different dishes). we left satisfied and full :D judging by everyone's contentment with it i think we should do it soon.

then off to brunswick and smith street for shopping. smith street seems a pretty good place if you're looking for factory outlet stuff, i saw some really cheap clothes and all good brands too. brunswick has good accessories. back there next week to check out the rose market and get some churros. YUM.

after walking so much me tea and jan wanted to flop over and die. so much so that we saw signs for ten dollar things and we couldn't be bothered with them. lol. i sat down before realizing everything up at the dangerfield warehouse was ten dollars and jan was like.. 'hold my things!' so i grabbed everything wearily and sat there too tired to even change my facial expressions. then jan asked 'why're u sitting down?' i replied blearily that i was too tired and she commented that it was such a waste since everything was ten dollars. then i gasped and jumped out and thrust everything back into jans hands and said 'im not sitting down anymore!'

but the energy ran out. i was too lazy to even take out my wallet so i left this pretty cute bag that i found. ah wells. i'll live without it.

SOOO TIRED ._. then we went to the fish and chips shop to have dinner and visit melina.

the new boss sucks. i miss the old managers already, they were so nice. this one is unfriendly and i suspect, a tad racist. he seems mean and he never smiles or talks. everyone who works is like reaaally quiet around him, when with the old bosses we all used to joke and laugh and all =(

mmm. well i'm working with jan this tuesday as well as the new guy alex. he seems nice :)

i'm very tired now. i think i'll go watch the shawshank redemption. blog more when i get more photos.

HILLSONGS UNITED :D

awesome, worth my $5 (ridiculously cheap for such a sellout event), worth the crazy jumping around till my feet hurt, worth the shouts and screams till i lost my voice, worth all the squeezing and hyperventilating in such a humongous crowd. JOEL HOUSTON SPOKE =D fantastic.

i even endured a sudden fart, i mean it was so squashed up and everyone was pressed against each other when suddenly it became very roomy nearby. i was wondering how come it was so spacious all of a sudden then i smelt the reason. yes, smelt.

another funny sight was the guy in front of me moshing, he had a very erm, shall we say, unique style. :D he looked like he was having kneecap spasms. or fits :P popping up and down like a jack in the box.

well, thank God for the one and remaining last ticket that i snapped up, because i was originally meant to go for another musical oklahoma! tonight which i heard was spectacular as well (maryanne was performing lead which is why i reluctantly parted with $25 to see it) but thanks to zhen who gladly relieved me of my ticket i got to go for hillsongs! tough choice, but i think hillsongs united wins hands down any day, since they hardly ever come (hillsongs UNITED) darlene apparently puts in quite a regular appearance at city life..

no pictures at the moment. i intended to snap myself out, but it was essentially impossible coz i was moshing and coz my camera ran out of battery. i could've stabbed myself since i took extra effort making up today and dressing up identical with gloria, for fun. everybody was like o_O!

i blended bronze eyeshadow with green glitter in case anybodys interested in the technicalities of makeup :D

well i guess i'd better go, i'm waking up early to meet the girls for YUMCHA :D at taipan, which we've been planning to do for ages. we have eight people, which is a nice round figure for yumcha.

and i have to start hunting for furniture, carpets and paints and stuff.. coz i'm moving house! woohoo!

OH and karas sixteenth on sunday ;)

YAYERS it looks like these holidays are gonna be BUSY.

today i sneakily got some of my teachers to fill out my uni subject reference application form. actually i'm not supposed to see the form and my results and their comments and their recommendation for me :p but who cares anyway. as if i'll pass it to my teachers to pass it along to each other since half of them are floozy and unreliable, and the other half would write one too many comments if given the extra time (mr. yu for example - he always comments unnecessarily) and i know ms. rennie would've ticked a NO for punctuality and attendance if i wasn't watching her tick the boxes.

muahaha. and i got a B for one of my outcomes. not knowing that it was the AVERAGE grade they required to be a B+ (i thought they take into consideration every outcome) i added a + next to the B. lol :D

then i went to friggin altona north for the Royal Melbourne Road Show info session. the place was in a hole and 3741893074 miles from civilization at some recruitment agency. and then they got us to fill out some forms and fill in referees and even do a math test. which priscilla failed lol. i looked over and was like.. ... >.< *pris's answer was wrong* hmm.. *double check* me: PSST! pris.~!! pris: what? me: number seven! check again! pris: what about it? me: its wroooong! $20 - $5.50 x 2 is not $14 something! i was like o_O! what a comprehensive procedure for just selling showbags. i ticked alot of no's except i refused to wear hard hats and safety gloves, so i ticked the YES box under 'do you object to wear any of these' :p lol. it was kinda an eyeopener in a sense that alot of the applicants were really.. weird dropout kids.. like a 21 year old doing year 11 again, and some 22 year old with 2 kids and his 17 year old girlfriend.. and etc.. well it's sort of an advantage to them having more practical experience working when in reality we're probably smarter. i guess i don't see so much of that in this area, coz we're very.. asian populated. lol. i hope i get it, since i've gone through all that trouble. plus i think it would look fantastic on a resume :D grr. fingers crossed. anyway melina wanted to draw on my hand. so i let her. this is melina's work of art. i came to the conclusion that melina has 2 great talents in life -.-

1) making fish and chips
2) drawing penises.

coz that really looks like a penis. it's quite offensive -.- my dad saw it and had a minor heart attack.

EVERYONE I HAVE AN ANNOUNCEMENT!
I'VE BEEN ON A CHOCOLATE FAST FOR 1 WEEK!
now i really want cookies and cream ice cream coz its not really chocolate.
im very sad :(

i got back from getting ice cream and sending jan some. i even walked down jan's scary driveway by myself!

see how much i love you jan! <3 even braving the dark scary driveway by myself!

anyway poor isaac is sick :( get well soon. :D chin up!

TO ALL THE GIRLS :D
LETS GO YUMCHA THIS HOLIDAYS! IS A SATURDAY AFTERNOON ON THE FIRST WEEK OF HOLS GOOD FOR EVERYONE?!
SUGGESTIONS : BOX HILL FU LONG, TAI PAN IN EAST DONNY AND...FEEL FREE TO SUGGEST MORE.

argh!%$%# one thing that will never fail to make me grumpy and tick me off bad is the appearance of those dreaded red spots on your face.

YES I'M TALKING ABOUT PIMPLES. those stupid little abominations that seemingly spring out of nowhere and camp on your face especially the most prominent spots in the T zone like forehead, nose and chin. i always get it smack in the middle of my face or on my chin, which is just as bad anyway. not only are they unsightly.. they actually HURT..just now when i was having my shower i popped a pimple on my chin (which suddenly, i dunno how developed a whole network of pimples) like wtf man when did puberty come and land overnight on my chin.. and now my chin hurts like a b!@#h. my eyes were like watering and all. and the worst is not over coz theres more little volcanoes on my chin waiting to errupt. this will take the best of my concealer (thank God for MAC) and pimple cream.

whenever i see people with like really bad acne, i wonder how they can move their facial muscles into different expressions without pain when their face is like practically one big pimple anyway. it's a mystery, it really is.

man that's one of my deepest fears. waking up with a sudden severe attack of acne. not only will i suffer pain but suffer being not so pleasant looking. (and that sucks because i am vain) and.. what i really hate but im guilty of anyway is staring at peoples pimples when im talking to them because the pimples look so big and bright and red.

OK I DESERVE THE PIMPLES. FINE.!

nobody had better stare at my pimples tomorrow -.-

speaking of fears i have many irrational fears lah. let me tell you about a couple, off the top of my head.

1) becoming a spinster (nobody wants me :( ) and being one of those old ladies that stay in apartments with 398741 cats.. and one day trying to fix a light i slip, hit my head and slowly bleed to death.. and nobody knows.. and after 10 days when the smell of my body reaches downstairs.. they find me.. with a few body parts missing coz the cats got hungy o_O if i dont get married.. =( i'm moving into a retirement home so something like that won't happen.

2) THE DENTIST AND THE SPIDER. refer to a few posts down about visiting the dentist.

3) sudden attack of pimples

4) sudden disappearance of all cocoa trees. (i will die. trust me.)

anyway jan is analyzing the possible reasons for this sudden outbreak of pimples.
a n e a n ♥ » http://shuuemura.blogspot.com/ says (9:36 PM):
too much chocolate ? i duno
xinbean ._. says (9:37 PM):
i havent had chocolate in FIVE DAYS
xinbean ._. says (9:37 PM):
MAYBE THATS WHY IM BREAKING OUT
j a n e a n ♥ » http://shuuemura.blogspot.com/ says (9:37 PM):
whens ur period
xinbean ._. says (9:41 PM):
er
xinbean ._. says (9:41 PM):
over already
j a n e a n ♥ » http://shuuemura.blogspot.com/ says (9:43 PM):
i see
j a n e a n ♥ » http://shuuemura.blogspot.com/ says (9:43 PM):
maybe ur preg
j a n e a n ♥ » http://shuuemura.blogspot.com/ says (9:43 PM):
OMG
j a n e a n ♥ » http://shuuemura.blogspot.com/ says (9:43 PM):
0_o
j a n e a n ♥ » http://shuuemura.blogspot.com/ says (9:43 PM):
xinni !


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;) NAH.

so i'm sitting here, another friday night again. this friday was pretty fun!:D but more about that later, the reason i'm sitting here blogging again like a sad person nothing better to do on friday nights is cos i dont work fridays :D lol. i could though, and earn myself alot more money = more shopping or even a new desktop or ipod or new furniture for my room or etc, the wants are never-ending. what a pity i'm not rolling in money eh?

well my dad's home again.. seems like it's been so quick since he last went back. ah well. he brought back a whole luggage of goodies. spices (for bak kut teh soup) and DURIAN MOONCAKE and.. omg

anyway today was the chinese excursion to sovereign hill! :D apparently thats where the first chinese settled in melbourne, attracted by the promise of gold (such typical azns
me and bena photowhoring on the bus!

with the other chinese buddiesss.
starring regina & jess[first 4 pics] , #5 amanda, #6 lissie & vanessa, #7 maggieee, #8 elaine (how cute is she!) and #9 tracy slime <3#1 me pat and tsunkit being sillies in the dress shop; #2 teee & xin; #3 xin & viv (another cutesy), #4 hildaaaa, #5 bobby and me well -.- really only bobby since the bus moved; #6 lili & er.. year 10. *nods*

pretty self explanatory :D that.

jackson's like.. IM GONNA BE RICH OH YEA~
then he realized that there wasn't very much gold left, after like, the mine was opened to the public as a museum -.-

anyway i got ditched so i hung out with pat and tsun kit ._.
we visited the lolly shop.
and they bought lollies. here they are very happy with their purchase :D

we walked up an effing slope that was sooo steep. i saw it and i was like.. OMG THIS IS A MOUNTAIN. anyway i wanted to take a photo of some structure that looked mildly interesting.

but sally did not see that :p and she ploughed through my photo.
here is sally, since i got a photo of her :)

but its OK! cos i took another one.

i thought they were part of the attraction until clifford told me they were visitors too :p
they look like theyre having fun.
we went underground too =.= and.. we saw the first gold mass mined in australia.
damn its big. o_O i want it for myself. :D its like worth millions apparently.

we saw a magic show and etc. there were horses and all too. very nice :D

oh and we had lunch at some dodgey looking chinese restaurant but the food turned out OK. then on the bus back i sat with bena for like half an hour ._. and then i got kicked out because she wanted to discuss something important with amanda -.-

so i sat with bobby.

who didn't want to take a photo at first so he pretended to cry.
here is bobby crying sadly :p
everyone else was sleeping. >.< (including me for a bit) benas the sneaky photographer who disturbed everyone in their sleep by attacking them with a flash in each photo :p #1 me; #2 clifford; #3 mr. yang (lol); #4 tracy, #5 whitney, #6 ocean..or william. i can't tell the diff between those 2.

THE END :D funness.

photo from youth alive night. credit makeup done by gloria. PRETTY GOOD, considering we did it on the sidewalk. no mirror. no nothing.

steve irwin died.
and the whole nation is in an uproar.

everyone's got turtles on their msn names and 'CRIKEY MATE!' RIP STEVE IRWIN.. etc etc.

._. whats so big about that guy. i thought he just sat on crocodiles and grinned happily and got famous cos his job was so shit that nobody except him was nuts enough to wade into water and splash around with crocs and snakes and all that disgusting stuff ._. WHILE BEING HAPPY!

on second thought, yeh, if anyone was nuts enough to do that for an occupation i guess he deserved fame.
wanna know how he died? he got stung by an itsy bitsy lil stingray, after crocodiles and snakes and all that gross reptilian specimens ._.

i KNOW.. so anticlimax. -.-

anyway the song 'qian li zhi wai' by jay chou & fei yu ching is spectacular. its so deep i had to get my mum to explain it to me and she was like o_O! and so was i.

classic :D

now i can't stop listening to it. IT'S STUCK IN MY HEAD.

i was very sad today. i didn't manage to finish off my analysis essay :( i better scrap an A or there will be blood -.-

general math outcome tomorrow & im sitting on my bum hearing qian li zhi wai for the 23487211742412374219875th time.

love it.

a deluge of photos cos we are photowhores -.- anyway, notice the straight hair, you guys who knew me in sec1/2 doesn't this remind you of then??

youth alive was good.
very atmospheric, lights sound music people voices and pounding beats.
the talk wasn't as long as i remembered, but simple testimonies that spoke volumes. there was also a video by an organisation 'free to be a child' which helped children in dire situations and some even being sold to prostitution.

watching the video, something just broke inside, it felt like the video opened a door and i just ached for all the wrongness in the world, knowing that people can work and work and work to change it, but it'll always be there.. it hurt alot for the things i can't change or make better..

i think all murderers and lechers deserve to be locked up with each other in a seperate island so that these horrible people can be with each other and hopefully all end up choking each other to death or something. effing child abusers.

>.<
bright lights :D

lifting our hands to God.. =p this guy is very enthusiastic. he was waving a rubber hand probably half my size.
:D
hung with janbean before who is going to start at the fish and chips shop. lately there's been alot of drama happening, people quitting after hissy fits and nasty words, people crying, messy schedules, new fob azn owner whom we were all fooled into thinking was going to work, but BAM one day he buys out the shop o_O!! previous owners staying as managers, but being very crabby cos of the transaction period going on now, stocktaking, tax and all that stuff to sort out.

and now i'm rostered to wash on tuesdays too :( so upsetting. also because now i can only work on tuesdays because my tuition changed to thursday. ah well. studies over work i guess.

anyway, i am very tired.. in more ways than one. i need a holiday bad.