when oh when will this agony be over x_X it sucks being stuck in a rut where i am now, not sick enough to stay home and bum but not healthy enough to concentrate in school and do things with my 100%. it's pretty annoying since i never like doing things halfheartedly. either i just give up on things wholeheartedly or i doggedly pursue it, but i really hate being stuck in limbo and sort of going about everything in the most stoned way, sniffing and hearing my own voice resounding in my head, coughing and etc.
english outcome tomorrow on macbeth. zzz =p i cbs with the essay topics anymore, been poking at them for an hour and all i've come up with is 3 feeble essay plans, not even quotes. am screwed for tomorrow but meh, i hardly care. english this year is the biggest drag. i just realized that i don't even put in decent effort for literally half my subjects (lit, chi, eng) nup. for this past year my folders have been empty. no notes, no nothing. what a slacker ._.
soo i'm currently in a rut (not just being sick) also that it's this time of the year where it can only be described as 'siaaaan' ._. i'm sick of the school year already (or maybe term) cos it could very well possibly mean that i just need a break and i'd be all refreshed. but it seems like i've had enough of school and tests and outcomes. i haven't had a single week outcome free and it doesn't look like i'll have any either. it's a never-ending cycle designed to keep us chasing our tails and boy am i annoyed with that. my brain seems to have gone on a self-declared strike. oh holidays :'( come already. and i won't even be getting a decent break then, because i'm moving and it'll be packing and unpacking for those two weeks. plus relos are coming, and meh.. i cbs doing the whole 'show-people-around-melbourne' thing.
if only my grandparents would come sooner!oh joy :D one thing that never fails to put a smile on my face. everytime i see the pink blossom trees i think of my grandpa.
sigh, HOLIDAYS COME ALREADY =(
