i think i am trying to avoid doing work by always scabbing quizzes off huiwen's blog, which is always chock-full of the randommest quizzes. dum dee dum.. here i go again wasting time. i so cbf with school anymore :D

[1] I have read a book before
[ ] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping.
[ ] I have been to Canada.
[2] I have been on some sort of sports team.
[3] I have watched cartoons for hours before
[4] I have tripped UP the stairs.
[5] have fallen down an entire flight of stairs.
[6] have been snowboarding/skiing.
[7] I have played ping pong.
[8] I swam in the ocean.
[9] I have been on a whale watch.
[10] I have seen fireworks.
[11] I have seen a shooting star.
[ ] I have seen a meteor shower.
[ ] I have almost drowned.
[12] I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear.
[13] I have listened to one cd over & over & overagain.
[] I have had stitch(es).
[ ] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there.
[14] I have stayed up til 6am doing homework/projects.
[15] I currently have a job.
[16] I have been ice skating.
[17] I have been rollerblading.
[18] I have fallen flat on my face.
[19] I have tripped over my own two feet.
[ ] I have been in a fist fight.
[20] I have played videogames/com for more than 3hours straight.
[21] I have watched The Power Rangers before.
[21] I do / have attended Church regularly.
[22] I have played truth or dare.
[ ] I have already had my 16th birthday.
[ ] I have already had my 17th birthday.
[23] I've called someone stupid. And meant it.
[24] I've been in a verbal argument.
[25] I've cried in school.
[26] I've played basketball on a team.
[] I've played softball on a team.
[] I've played football on a team.
[] I've played soccer on a team.
[] I've done cheerleading on a team.
[27] I've swam on a team.
[28] I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life.
[ ] I've bungee jumped.
[29] I've climbed a rock wall before.
[30] I've lost more than $20.
[31] I've called myself an idiot.
[32] I've called someone else an idiot
[33] I've cried myself to sleep
[34] I've had (or have) pets.
[ ] I've owned a Spice Girls cd. and or tape
[35] I've owned a Britney Spears cd
[36] I've owned an N*Sync cd
[37] I've owned a Backstreet Boys cd
[] I've mooned someone
[] I've sworn at someone in authority
[38] I've been in the schoolnewspaper / insights.
[] I've been on TV
[39] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been on the other side of a waterfall
[40] I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies.
[41] I've watched all the Harry Potter movies.
[ ] I've watched the 3 Stooges at least once.
[42] I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica.
[43] I've watched Looney Tunes before.
[ ] I've been stuffed into a locker
[ ] I've been called a geek.
[44]I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade.
[45] I've not studied at all for a test and aced it.
[] I've met a celebrity / music / TV artist.
[] I've written poetry.
[ ] I've been arrested
[46] I've been attracted to someone much older than me
[47] I've been tickled till I've cried
[48] I've tickled someone else until they cried
[49] I've had / have siblings
[] I've been to a rock concert does 5566 count? haha
[50] I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it
[51] I've been in a play
[] I've been picked last in gym class
[] I've been picked first in gym class or so
[52] Ive been picked in that middle-range in gym class.
[53] I've cried in front of my friends
[54] I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages
[55] I've freaked out over a sports game
[] I've vomited in public
[] I've washed someone else's vomit
[] I've ran away
[] I've had a stalker
[56] I've had a fight with someone on txt
[57] I've had a fight with someone face-to-face
[ ] I've been in a car accident
[58] I've forgiven someone who has done something bad to me
[59] I've personally seen someone die
[ ] I've been confronted by a police officer but got away
[60] I've lost someone who meant the world

I have lived through 60 of these 99 things.

rawr, i think this basically says in a nutshell that i don't play sports and i'm a pretty much run of the mill fifteen year old ._.

school is so pointless =p i couldn't be bothered staying after lunch so me and em went to lemongrass chicken and monsieur duponte instead =D yummy i love their tarts.. they're sooo nice.

also.. a few things on my mind at the moment. should i go to china again at the end of this year? :)
oh, and a couple of things to make you smile :D

"i wonder what they're talking about??"

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea
Creation's revealing Your majesty
From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring
Every creature unique in the song that it sings
All exclaiming

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You Know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You Know them by name
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God
You are amazing God

Incomparable, Unchangeable,
You see the depths of my heart and you love me the same.
You are amazing God

You are my strength when I am weak
           G               C
You are the treasure that I seek
          G   D  G   D
You are my all in all
G             D             Em
 Seeking You as a precious jewel
            G            C
Lord to give up, I'd be a fool
          G   D  G   D
You are my all in all


G D    Em      G    C      G  D    G  D
Jesus, Lamb of God, worthy is Your name
G D    Em      G    C      G  D    C  G
Jesus, Lamb of God, worthy is Your name

G           D                 Em
 Taking my sin, my cross, my shame
      G                   C
Rising again, I bless Your name
          G   D  G   D
You are my all in all
G             D                 Em
 When I fall down, You pick me up
         G                C
When I am dry, You fill my cup
          G   D  G   D
You are my all in all 

piano chords and lyrics if anyone can be bothered. this is an awesome song.
i was flipping through a worship book my friend gave me and it fell out, a small tiny
sheet.. and that single sheet speaks volumes thicker than the book at the moment cos now
and then i always lose my way, and forget who is my Everything.. and this song duly
reminded me that God gives all, and is all, and.. all I have and all I am is utterly His
creation and His will..taking my sin, my cross and my shame....:)

and that.. worrying about life or complaining about it like i have been lately.. is so
silly.. because every day is a day God's given me to do something with.. and i'm going to
spend it rejoicing in God's glory of all things :D

The Girly Test

My fingernails/toenails are almost always painted
During the summer pretty much the only shoes i wear are flip flops
My favorite toy as a child were barbies
My favorite color is purple
I did Gymnastics
I love skirts
Hollister is my favorite place to shop
Tight jeans are the only jeans i'll wear
I love chocolate
I've never had a real job
TOTAL: 7

My hair is straightened
I have at least 8 friendster pictures
I usually go shopping once a week
I love to hang out with friends
I have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace
I've gone to a tanning salon
Ive gone to the beach to tan - not to swim
I have at least 10 pairs of shoes
I watch either the OC or Laguna Beach
I change my icon weekly
TOTAL: 6

I wear a shower cap
I would NEVER step foot into Hot Topic
My cell phone might as well become a part of me
I wear mascara everyday
I've been or am on a diet
Bathing suits are adorable
I dont know the difference between a sheep and a goat
Big sunglasses are hot
I have gotten my nails done
I own over 10 purses
TOTAL: 3

MTV is one of my favorite channels
All i want to do at sleepovers is talk about boys
I love to have other girls do my hair
I give and receive hugs from all my friends
I hate bugs, snakes, lizards, spiders
Carnivals are so fun
Summer is THE best season
My swimsuit has 2 pieces
Im waiting for my knight in shining armor
Pianists are so hot
TOTAL: 6

You write me a poem and tell me Im beautiful and Im all yours
I am self-conscious
I cry often
My car smells like vanilla
My dishes get washed more then once a week
I dont do sports
I HATE to run
I squeal when i am surprised or angry
I eat dried fruit as a snack
I love romance novels
TOTAL: 5

Drew Barrymore is so cute
I dance a lot
I usually spend over an hour to get ready to leave my house
I only have like 5 billion hair products
I love to get dressed up
Every part of my outfit needs to match
I talk on the phone at least once a day to my friends
I would love to have a photo shoot of myself
Price on clothes hardly matters
I apply lip gloss 50 times a day
TOTAL: 5

I wish i were a model
I wish i could meet Paris Hilton to slap her
I have been something that was slutty on halloween
I own Uggs
Hip Hop is the best music
I pop my collar
I like to be the center of attention
Guys with Mohawks are crazy
horses are beautiful
I'd rather not pay attention in school
TOTAL: 1

Cats are adorable
I write my own music/song/lyric
I would love to visit Hawaii
Valentine's day! i like
White is better then black
I wouldn't be caught dead in all black
My closet is STOCK FULL of clothes
I hate the grunge look of a beard
I love to read gossip magazines
I love to gossip
TOTAL: 7

I had Lisa Frank folders, posters as a kid
I love Celine dion
My bubble baths are 2 hr long
My wedding only needs a groom because it's already planned
My friends and i are in a strict group. we mostly only hang out with each other
I like kids
Diet drinks are the best
Im all about being vegetarian
I refuse to eat at McDonald's
I check my friendster everyday
TOTAL: 0

I LOVE life
I have a lot of jewlery
Claires has cheap jewlery
My screen names have x's in them
I would never want to be the opposite sex
It's not what he/she said it's the way he/she said it
I have more than 3 pillows on my bed
I have a stuffed toy sleeping beside me
I love tidy and clean places
TOTAL: 6

46/100 lol :D

update time! ._. the small font on this skin is reaaaally getting on my nerves especially when i'm blogging in bed and cbs wearing my glasses my face is like.. 2cm away from the screen cos i'm half-blind and the tiny ass font doesn't make reading what i type any easier.

anyway, yesterday i had tuition in the city after school. during school i was in a somewhat grumpy mood and very quiet. the last bell finally went, and off we headed to tuition. we saw this girl from my school and her adulterous affair partner. it's outrageous i tell you, we drove by them and my eyes popped out and i was scarred for life. the guy is like twice her age and is married with a kid in balwyn primary. i was like OMG STAB ME ._. what is wrong with this world!! apparently they have regular sex and she's ever been confronted by the wife but she thought it was a joke. MAD i tell you..

hah, but i bet in singapore she would be condemned immediately, because singapore is so freaking tight =p if anyone had sex before marriage and somehow people found out, everyone would be like *GASP* SLUT! and pretty soon it'd be in the papers and EVERYONE, i mean EVERYONE, from the auntie selling hokkien mee to the bus driver.. would know who you are.

how mortifying.

speaking of mortifying.. after tuition, gloria absolutely couldn't stand the tuition teacher anymore (tsfx material is awesome, but for some reason our teacher really sucks at teaching) and she went up to the reception to fill out a teacher evaluation form.. -.- and the guy was like 'if the teacher receives too many of these what happens is she gets fired'.. bena goes 'then i'll get my class to fill out more and all!'..

.. i felt really bad and i was like.. *gasp* but i don't want her to get fired!...

then i turned around to shift my bag and saw the teacher in the lounge room behind us staring at us.. i was soooooo.. shocked + embarrassed + i don't know what.. i just grabbed my bag and ran out of the room.. and hunkered down in this small corner waiting for gloria and bena to come out glancing furtively around, and REALLY hoping the teacher wouldn't come out and see me and confront me. i could just imagine her trying to stab me or something for attempting to get her fired. then gloria came out and i jumped.

gloria : how come you just ran out?
xinni : err..
gloria : are you feeling okay? bena said you looked sick.

...... darn right i looked sick, i felt very bad that i had to leave immediately because i was having a major guilt trip.

and of course that meant retail therapy =] and comfort food. i love how tsfx is so near to singapore chomp chomp, which isn't reaaally like the chomp chomp in singapore, but it's pretty close..oh, and also exorbitantly priced compared to its counterpart but who cares, it's decent won ton mee and stuff. YUM.. you have no idea how much i miss iced milo.. really.

so after shopping and becoming seriously broke.. we went home to play piano. i love it when people play piano. it's awesome.. :D i could watch people for hours. and even though my piano is so out of tune.. =\ lol.. it still sounds like a piano but just a really bad one.. i hope i can get rid of it and get a new one soon.. but mum doesn't believe in that because she's still tricked into believing our piano is worth heaps after some.. mean tuner cheated her money and didn't do jack with the tuning of the piano -.-

yes.. and today i planned to do work but i didn't -.- i went shopping again with jan and tea.

we laughed alot.

...i found that dress at chic collections that i really liked, and it's going to be my dress for next year's formal =p and that's that because i've made up my mind about it.

there were many funny things that happened but i almost can't remember. lol at fobs shopping in chapel st and the girl peered at the price tag and whispered to her boyfriend 'let's go.. nothing is $10' LOL.. sif in chapel st you'd find $10 stuff..

... =p and we heard that roy had a sale and ran to roy but was disappointed cos we went to the wrong store which wasn't really a store, and when we found the real store everything was still expensive. we are pov.. =( ._.

oh well.

at the end of everything we stood outside a souvlaki shop ..wondering whether splitting an $8 souvlaki would work between three people.. =p and we stood there literally RIGHT OUTSIDE THE WINDOW watching the meat spin round and round and round.. and the man came and sliced up some meat and left a piece hanging.. and it went round and round and round.. and our eyes went round and round and round.. and.. it dropped and we flung our arms out and screamed nooooooooooooooooooooo! i think the souvlaki man was very disturbed by us.

._. it was chicken souvlaki though, not lamb. I HATE LAMB. I HATE LAMB SOUVLAKI. DIE PEOPLE WHO INVENTED SOUVLAKI.

I LOVE WILL.. how cute is he! in london underground and everything!!

ok.. end of post =D goodbye all.

:p im such a bitch when i pms that small little things tick me off immensely.. especially certain.. irritating.. things :D

if only you guys knew what was going on in my head..

oh, and another thing to look out for is outbreak on my face of those dreaded red spots and mass retail therapy ._. moodiness, tiredness, crankiness, etc.

RAWR

lol at jono -.- send me like 134712983741982074124 pictures of food and random inanimate stuffs im just like o_O hungrrrry.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Fl6kjUWBJQ

zzz.. same old monotonous days at school. today mr. yu decided to play a GAME where we all wrote a different scenerio on seperate slips of paper and he mixed it up and got everyone to read out their new mixed up weird sentences =p.

and then he called me and i politely declined because my sentence was rather impolite. but he insisted -.-

mr. yu : SAY IT!!
me: are you sure you want to hear it -.- it's a bit.. rude.
mr. yu : SAY IT!! as long as it doesnt hurt anybody.
me: ..okay if you say so. (then i passed it to tina who read it for me since i couldn't say it)
tina: today after school
mr yu: YESss??
tina: my chinese teacher..
mr yu: Oooh. your chinese teacher! what did he do??
tina: he farted.

....and the whole class went into hysterics as mr. yu waved his arms to calm everybody down and assured us that it was very normal o_O!

and we received a card from caris. very happy to hear she's getting better. praise God! :D

i need driving lessons already.

i fell asleep and i had a strange dream. i dreamt about jelly. yes, i love jelly. especially the liquid soft jelly-drink they sell in 7-11 in singapore.. :( and koniyaku jelly with pineapples in them.. and all sorts of jelly...and i woke up many hours later coughing with an itch in my throat. i think i ate a fly while dreaming about jelly.

ICE SKATING IN CHINA

another monday come and gone.
for some reason, mondays seem to be harder to get through than most other days. it's a miracle i've lived through so many mondays yet. the classes drag on and it's so hard to keep my eyes open sometimes i wonder if i should've just stayed home and slept through the day. but zzz, that happens to be one of those little fantasies everyone has. something really weird has been happening to me lately, i've been having dreams about having dreams while sleeping while i really am sleeping. did that make sense? that's how sleep deprived i feel during school, but when school is over it's like i really wake up. today was beautiful though, made it worth it just to be up and about. i imagine God clapped his hands and spread them left and right and the earth filled with sunshine and color.

muahaha, i think it's been too long since i've seen sun that i'm delirious when i see it.

anyhows there's lots of work to be done so i shall be off now.

mr G is hilarious.

me: er.. can i get the lecture thing for yr 12 subjects?
mr. G: they're in the orange box over there. now LISTEN.BEFORE.YOU.MOVE.
me: ...
mr. G: LISTEN. BEFORE.YOU MOVE. LISTEN. BEFORE. YOU. MOVE.!
me and jan: .......................................we're listening?
mr. G: now BEFORE you take that sheet, take that ENVELOPE in front of it.
me and jan: ..
mr. G: okay now you can move.

.... i feel sorry for baby G. poor kid if he's just busting to go to the toilet or something and mr. G pulls another one of those on him.

:) sometimes the simplest of things can but a smile in your face, a warm glow in your heart and this feeling that everything in the world is alright, that you just want to sing out in happiness. something nice said about you that you know is genuine can make you feel like you're on top of the world for those wonderful few seconds. so thanks for putting a smile on my face and that special glow inside GARENE.. i love you more than you hate math and.. without you, getting through sec 1&2 (ESP 2) would have been impossible. keep on trying for O's! it'll be over so soon before you know it.. and yeh, even though i'm so far away we'll keep on sharing this friendship and building the memories =)

ice skating today! it was fun and i haven't fallen yet. wee! :) learnt to turn and attempted to skate backward. some girl was doing figure eights and jumps in the middle. ahh, so graceful. ice skating is truly one of the best looking sports.

omg, everyone is coming to melbourne.. u2, kylie, panic at the disco, taking back sunday, senses fail, youth group, RHCP, dashboard confessional, hardfi, the veronicas, hawthorne heights, westlife, ****BILLY JOEL****.. etcetc.

and i got no money..
but..

haha.. westlifeee :p

hm.

CARNIVAL DAY!

me and zhen during literature. =p
they put a smile on my face :D
romy and i.. with jack in the background =x
stop trying to KISS ME!!
i duno what he was doing but it was funny :p
xinbean,meanbean,and..melina. -.-
karaJAAaAaDE. =.=
the wind was blowing all over. i had dutch pancakes and the icing went everywhere.
look at all the excited people
the jumping castle!
melina and geloria.

the potato man came, and there were vans chock full of ice cream. dutch pancakes. pizza. pie eating contests. YUM! :D

music was blasting, remixed by some year 12 guys.. =.= worst mixes i've EVER heard LOL and they were like fully bopping to it.. 'run it' was going at like 200 ticks of the metronome.. and no, it sounds better slow.

little kids running around getting their faces painted and hair sprayed.. and a MASSIVE line for the jumping castle. ._.

very nice and sunny yesterday. i couldn't be stuffed going to english so i wagged and went to watch hoodwinked in the city instead. :D hoodwinked is cuteeee. i have a new fetish for chipmunks now. SAVE THE CHIPMUNKS!! STOP CUTTING DOWN TREES!!

uh, anyway :D also got sarah's present, $36 from myers. what an expensive pair of earrings ._.

oh and yay! ice skating tomorrow at oakleigh. :D fun. shall take lots of pictures.

anyway, i am very annoyed. mum and sister have been trying to make me stop eating chocolate so now they buy many healthy snack bars... i opened one today and it smelt like the dried up stuff i used to feed my hamster :(

poor thing, no wonder it curled up and died.

purple hair :D
yay look at glorias regrowth and my FRESH DYE
aww.. isn't childhood priceless?
so cute :D this was from a housewarming i attended over the weekend :D it was very serene and peaceful until some lady felt a heart attack coming on and the ambulance came and took her to hospital. very melodramatic cos she was sitting up and all describing her symptoms lividly. lol.

If one day you discover him
broken down he's lost everything
no cars, no fancy clothes to make him who he's not
the woman at his side is all that he has got

Why do you ask him move heaven and earth
To prove his love has worth
Would he walk on water
Would he run through fire
Would he stand before you
When it's down to the wire
Would he give his life up
To be all he can
Is that, is that, is that
How you measure a man

If by chance all he had to give you
Was three words wrapped around your finger
Would that be deep enough at the end of everyday
and how will you ever know if a man is what he says

Why do you ask him move heaven and earth
To prove his love has worth Ohhh..
Would he walk on water
Would he run through fire
Would he stand before you
When it's down to the wire
Would he give his life up
To be all he can
Is that, is that, is that
How you measure a man

He'd never gives up
Lets go of his dreams
his world goes around
for his one true belief
Is that how you know
Is that what it means

Heyyyy...Would he walk on water
Would he run through fire
Would he stand before you
Will he be your anchor when the dark unfolds
Will he always love you the best that he knows
Would he give his life up
To be all he can
Is that, is that, is that
How you measure a man

Would he walk on water
Would he run through fire
Would he stand before you
When it's down to the wire
Would he give his life up
To be all he can
Is that, is that, is that
How you measure... oh whoa
Is that, is that, is that
How you measure a man

when oh when will this agony be over x_X it sucks being stuck in a rut where i am now, not sick enough to stay home and bum but not healthy enough to concentrate in school and do things with my 100%. it's pretty annoying since i never like doing things halfheartedly. either i just give up on things wholeheartedly or i doggedly pursue it, but i really hate being stuck in limbo and sort of going about everything in the most stoned way, sniffing and hearing my own voice resounding in my head, coughing and etc.

english outcome tomorrow on macbeth. zzz =p i cbs with the essay topics anymore, been poking at them for an hour and all i've come up with is 3 feeble essay plans, not even quotes. am screwed for tomorrow but meh, i hardly care. english this year is the biggest drag. i just realized that i don't even put in decent effort for literally half my subjects (lit, chi, eng) nup. for this past year my folders have been empty. no notes, no nothing. what a slacker ._.

soo i'm currently in a rut (not just being sick) also that it's this time of the year where it can only be described as 'siaaaan' ._. i'm sick of the school year already (or maybe term) cos it could very well possibly mean that i just need a break and i'd be all refreshed. but it seems like i've had enough of school and tests and outcomes. i haven't had a single week outcome free and it doesn't look like i'll have any either. it's a never-ending cycle designed to keep us chasing our tails and boy am i annoyed with that. my brain seems to have gone on a self-declared strike. oh holidays :'( come already. and i won't even be getting a decent break then, because i'm moving and it'll be packing and unpacking for those two weeks. plus relos are coming, and meh.. i cbs doing the whole 'show-people-around-melbourne' thing.

if only my grandparents would come sooner!oh joy :D one thing that never fails to put a smile on my face. everytime i see the pink blossom trees i think of my grandpa.

sigh, HOLIDAYS COME ALREADY =(

omg (*&^% i hate my house. as in, not MY house, but the crappy piece of (*&^ im staying in now ._. the lightbulb in my room burst like five months ago and ever since then we've had to scurry around in the dark looking for the main switch to turn on a portable light. just then i got a call, and i couldn't even find my mobile. i knocked over at least four things and bumped my legs on many more. )*&^% and seriously, BOTH tv's in my house are malfunctioning, the big one outside has happily decided that when it plays DVDS it'll do so without color, the small one inside refuses to even function. and both taps in the main bathroom are swapped around, so people who take their showers for the first time are like WTF when steaming water comes pouring out when they turn the COLD tap, and vice versa. and don't even bother with door knobs. the door knob just turns off into your hand and you're left there panicking for a split second thinking OMG I PULLED THE DOORKNOB OFF until u remember that it happens on a regular basis, and nothing to panic about, just shove the doorknob back in again. and the floorboards creak like a haunted house so my parents always wake up when im tiptoeing around in the middle of the night (no shiet, my mums the most paranoid person ever. once someone played the MSN plus evil laugh and she ran out screaming and waving her arms that there was some strange man in the house laughing.) and ever since then she always casts disturbed glances at the windows like some madman is going to jump in from them one day. yeah, i know what you're thinking, she needs a job. and in this day and age, WHAT HOUSE does not have a dishwasher?! i feel like i'm living back in the stone age washing dishes manually. and I HATE WASHING DISHES. and then the fact that there is NO ducted air conditioning so in summer we all bake like potatoes in the house.


and the curtains are effing ugly. and the mirrors creep me out.


okay done ranting. at least i'm moving soon. HALLELUJAH.

zzz at melbourne uni making all double degrees postgrad *cough*LAW while medicine apparently remains undergrad. =o absolute rubbish. now everyone's like.. 'meh. monash for me.'

i reckon it's a stupid move because melbourne uni's going to lose alot of popularity since double degrees are a big thing these days for everyone. it's not only an option, its the option for people aiming high. very, very high. and what happens with the delegated number of graduates moving into the workforce? come 2008, the graduates in the law sector will be nonexistent coz everyone will be scrambling to do their second degree now. roar at them ._.

plus we're going to be stuck in uni forever. doing the math, it seems like i'll get out when i'm 22. =o geebers, that's ages away. i don't know how long more i could survive in high school, not to talk about uni. for a person like me with barely any self motivation and drive, it's going to take a superhuman effort to succeed. and i refuse to settle for second best. so right now, options are wide wide open for interstate uni or even overseas, if i could afford it. if not, i could always get into a uni first and do an exchange program. it's always been my dream anyway :p

ah, the future beckons so big and exciting -.-

today was so painful just trying to talk. i made a variety of inhumanly high infrared-resembling sounds like the ones those nokia phones made when i cracked up excessively during methods =p FUNNIEST methods lesson ever. shouldn't have come today though -.- seriously, 1 period all day everything else was spares. sometimes i wonder why i even bother.

not that it's going to change a thing about failing my methods test tomorrow that is.

zzzz.

australia's got mad people. =o on the news some babysitter put a toddler into the tumble dryer for fun. like.. wth o_O!

for some reason, the random image of beard papa's cream puffs just popped up in my head. :D and how when i was in singapore, despite all the outward protesting (it was too damned hot to eat) and inward horror at all the fat i'd be consuming (literally.filled.with.cream.) ellice insisted and dragged me in line. not that i regretted of course, they were bloody fantastic :D

dum dee dum.. youth is on fridays now, so is tuition. shall have to work around that =o looks like i'm not getting friday nights off from now on.

combinatorics eats poo.

everyone hobbles around now after the amazing race.

this is my rifle, this is my gun.. this is for shooting, this is for fun! :D - stewie

hurhur :p i love russell peters. he does the BEST accents.

course selection coming up. looks like next year's subjects will be:
-eng lit
-chi
-methods
-specialist
-one more space.. -> legal/accounting/bio/intpolitics OR if i can get it.. HOPEFULLY.. uni psych or something :D
any suggestions as to what i should pick for my spare space?

rawr at everyone. time seems to be flying by so fast, in a blink it's all over and i'm gonna be in yr 12 mugging like nuts soon. :(

i hate combinatorics. :p anything to procrastinate.

Appearance
[x] I am, or am shorter than 5'4. eek. i am the only one of my friends who have done this who's ticked this box so far. and i have a confession - i don't know the conversion rate, but *GASP* according to www.convert-me.com, i am.. er.. 4'99 =o
[X] I have scars. indeed i do. :p
[ ] I tan easily i get a.. red tan :p that peels and blisters.
[X] I wish my hair was a different color for anyone who's been around me lately.. :p how many times have i affirmed that i must dye my hair again.. RED?!
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color. well -.- everyone can see my regrowth.
[ ] I have/I've had braces. thankfully, no.
[X] I wear/need glasses. fine. :p i am vain and i wear contacts.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings. had.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[X] I have freckles. in excess. i'm about as spotted as a person can get. =o anyone know of any freckle-remedies, TELL ME.

Family/Home Life
[ ] I've sworn at my parents. in my head :p
[ ] I've run away from home. i wanted to, when i was seven and read sweet valley -.-
[x] I've been kicked out of the house. self explanatory :p
[ ] My biological parents are not together. i have this theory that i'm really an extraterrestial on earth and my real parents are in mars :D and that my superpowers haven't really manifested themselves yet. once they do, i'll be like.. supergirl. xD fwoar!
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old. NO!
[X] I want to have kids someday. duh, doesn't everyone?
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[X] I'm in school.
[x] In the summer I have a job.
[X] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[X] I almost always do my homework.
[ ] I got a perfect attendance award.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last year.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year
[ ] I've stolen something from my job.
[ ] I've been fired.
that pretty much says it all about school/work. very average.

Embarrassment
[X] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation. in china, when everyone couldn't get over 'roflol' and 'lol'
[X] Disney movies still make me cry. 'nuff said bout that one.
[ ] I've peed from laughing. LOL @ jan.
[X] I've snorted while laughing. it's not my fault my nostrils are small. -.-
[X] I've laughed so hard I've cried. har de har har.
[X] I've glued my hand to something. i glued my fingers to each other once.
[ ] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose/mouth.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.
[ ] I've stapled my hand.

Health
[ ] I've gotten stitches.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I've had a surgery.
[X] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling
[X] I've ridden over 20 miles in one day.
[X] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[X] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
[ ] I've been to the Eiffel Tower.
[X] I've been to Asia
[X] I've riden on a plane for over 24 hours.

i think we've pretty much established that i haven't been anywhere exotic -.- i've only been to weird nobody-knows places.

Experiences
[X] I've gotten lost in my city. *cough* i'm the winner of the 'most lost team' lol..
[X] I've seen a shooting star. very pretty. :D
[x] I've wished on a shooting star. .. what else would you do when you see one, point, stare and gape? :p spazzzooo~
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas. mm.. some days i just can't be bothered.
[X] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator. YES.. who hasn't? :p i liked to jump in the elevator too.
[x] I've been to a casino. some dodgy one in malaysia.
[ ]I've been skydiving i will one day.
[X] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've been in a car crash.
[ ] I've been Skiing. nuuu.. i hate the cold. mum's been trying to get me to go for the past few weeks. EVERY. SINGLE. WEEK. 'do you want to go skiining?' 'no.' 'okay.' =p geez you'd think she'd have gotten the message.
[X] I've been in a play/musical. yesss :D we sang 'little white boat' and some italian song. it was a Puccini thing.
[ ] I've met someone in person from the internet. LOL i know who you're talking about jan :p
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue. snowflakes don't even look like.. the snowflakes we all believe it to be. -.- they're just white and cold and i nearly froze my tongue off.
[X] I've sat on a roof top at night. carpark rooftop? :D
[X] I've played chicken.
[X] I've played a prank on someone.
[X] I've ridden in a taxi.
[X] I've eaten sushi. lol sushi =p

Honesty/Crime
[X] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[X] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[X] I've snuck out of my house
[X] I've cheated while playing a game
[X] I've cheated on a test/quiz.
[ ] I've run a red light. not me .. but my asian parents
[ ] I've been arrested. close enough. once for sneaking the ezlink taps, some mrt officer followed us all the way and stood outside the girls' toilets waiting for us to come out. we were like.. =o after hiding for half an hour, he was STILL there!

Crying/Self Esteem
[ ] I am/have been anorexic or bulemic.
[ ] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[ ] I sometimes hate myslef.
[ ] Some guy named "Tim" came up to you and called you fat, and then asked for you to get him another piece of cake.
[X] I get emotional if I or a friend is in a tough spot in life. fwoar. i get emo seeing math.


Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[X] I own an iPod or MP3 player
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[X] I used to collect comic books. yay good old archie
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie or Hollister -.- like that constitutes all brands.


Random
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs. i don't go near bugs. period.
[ ] I hate hearing songs that don't rhyme.
[ ] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person. oh gosh. NO.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I'm a sports/olympic fanatic olympics/commonwealth games this year was the first time i've ever watched cw games. :) gotta admit the opening ceremony was pretty good.
[ ] I love/like being neat.
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[ ] I bake well. :( everything i bake comes out looking like ****. literally. always browney black and.. er.. weird.
[X] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
[ ] I would wear pjs to school. NO.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[X] I am guilty of tYpInG lYk tHiS. ... :( now stop laughing.
[ ] I laugh at my own jokes. if it's that funny, i wouldn't even get the joke out, i'd be too busy cracking up.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I am online 24/7, even as an away message
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] i cant sleep with a spider in the room oh my gaawwwssh worst.nightmare.ever.
[x] I love white chocolate. i love chocolate.
[ ] I bite my nails. SEE THAT EMPTY BOX. I DON'T BITE MY NAILS. I DON'T!!
[ ] I play video games.
[X] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[x] I forget people's names.
[ ] I've called people some other name.
[x] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. everyone has dreams.. they're not always realistic.

ARGH ADD'ING BADLY (*&^%$#@%^&*( SOMEONE HELP ME WITH METHODS PLEASE.. i'll be forever in your debt. =(

i'm aching like nuts now. everywhere hurts. up down left right, i had to literally roll out of bed this morning. and while all the other girls are making feminine ladylike 'ouches' and 'ows'.. the sound that escapes when i'm in pain is somewhat more like a very unladylike groan. or 'ooomph' or 'oaaargh' =( i haven't been in such agony since ages.

all cos of that even more amazing race. a short recap of saturday's youth launch:
9.00 - participants assembled in front of church, 54 nungerner st.
9.30 - we'd gotten our teams, i was with tranny, maumau & alastair. this was very good indeed since tranny and alastair are pretty good with general directions. or so we thought. ;p we got our first clue and all teams raced to myrtle park. after about 1 street tranny and i wanted to keel over and die. it was more physical exercise than i've done in about a year.
first stop : mrytle park, where we had to chuck tennis balls to knock over a bucket from 398741329847m away -.- my ball barely bounced halfway so i gave up. when we finally knocked the buckets over.. we discovered the bucket was going to join the team. inside were snack bars, our clue and coins for the tram. :p
next stop - IKEA at richmond all the way in vic gardens, where we had to purchase some random items. obviously everything was in swedish, and IKEA is massive, so we all got lost a fair bit. had some mix up with all the thing we had to buy and that placed us last =p
then off we raced to the city, where our next stop was VIC MARKET =o and we had to buy 10kg of watermelon. but! :p since we were last, we couldn't find any watermelons after all the teams ahead all bought their 10 kilos each. so our task changed to '15 dollars worth of fruit' and we bought GRAPES.. lolol at the other teams with their 10kg of watermelon and our little bag of grapes =D and they were GOOD grapes too!
then off to flagstaff gardens for the 'iron chef' to prepare our lunch. =p no prizes for guessing what it was, since between the 10 or so teams we had more than a 100 kg of watermelon. then trannie had a bright idea and we decided to take the train. =p

and got lost.

when.. flagstaff gardens was right beside vic market. *smacks head*

tranny got sick.. so she sat there and ate enough watermelon to pee like a horse for the following hours, while the rest of the team got fast fowarded to the state library. our next clue was to be found in the RMIT library opposite, but by the time we got there, all the books were gone =p SABOTAGE i tell you.

so we got fast forwarded again. oh well =p

to CROWN we went, to the fountains where we had to use our buckets (and all the time i was wondering why they wouldn't give us like a shopping bag - which you know, is so much more socially acceptable to carry around the city than a bucket) to collect 8L's of water from the fountain. :p tranny had a stroke of brilliance while sitting there and we got maumau to run in the middle and place the bucket where the most water sloshed. so we sat there all dry and toasty while every other team had at least one person sopping wet. ha. :p very smug.

then.. to.. royal botanical gardens where 1 member of the team had to be piggybacked around trees + fountain. poor maurice bore the brunt of this very bravely =p he ended up carrying a 100kg in one afternoon, both me and tracy. now i hurt just from trying to hang on since i was slipping off his back.

...and since maurice was so tall, i couldn't exactly direct them where to go very well (everyone was blindfolded cept me) and .. suddenly. i heard my team members cry out as they stepped into some fertiliser lying on the ground. whoopsie. :p

then back to andrew's house all the way in balwyn. the tram was effing crowded and i was so tired, i wedged myself into some practically nonexistent space and sat there for the whole journey on the 109 back. credit to those who were still going at the puzzles. (with each stop we got really mind-wrecking puzzles, sudokus, riddles, etc.)

at andrew's house, we had a food challenge. Chicken Heart, Pig Liver, Blood Cube.. and Snickers. =p THANK GOD tranny eats absolutely everything, and seeing the look on my face, maumau went 'i guess ur taking the snickers' lol.

=D

ran to church after that and had to find a box. gave up. and we had a bbq dinner :D

and now im too tired to blog anymore. good bye!

... we did not arrive last contrary to popular belief. we were fourth last, so there ._. and we won the 'most lost team' LOL.

i got ADD ._. seriously, cos i can't do any work at the moment.
since i'm gonna fail the methods test anyway, its utterly hopeless so much so that i don't even feel like trying.
i saw a tree covered in pink blossoms today and a purple and red bird :D

rawr.

i've been tagged by huiwen :)
so here goes because i.. um.. *shouldbedoingmethodsnow* but annnnnyway.
here goes.

1. What is the best nickname you ever had?
haha..i remember in primary school garene used to call me xinni-ninny and then later in sec school it became 'nini' and 'ni'...and then jan came along and said 'beanie'. ._.

2. Which way of suicide would you choose?
i'll die naturally, thanks very much.

3. Rate your social life from 1 to 10.
erm.. 7 normally, when my dad's back it's like 2 -.-

4. Are you in love with someone at the moment?
yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrno.

5. Are you missing someone at the moment?
yes :D many people in fact.

6. Will you die for the one you love?
course i will.

7. Do you think love hurts?
yeah.. but that's what makes it so good anyway.

8. What is the best thing about love?
er.. why does this quiz ask so much about love? ok fine.. um.. that it's unconditional and the head in the clouds feeling.

9. What is the worst thing about love?
=o when it turns to hate. lol.

10. Will you wait for someone you love?
rar.. i don't know. sometimes it's just not realistic. i never believe those war stories about soldiers' widows who wait for them forever =p AS IF.

11. What song best describes your love life at the moment?
this shit is bananas.. b-a-n-a-n-a-s :D

12. Do you wanna get married?
eventually.

13. Have you talked to the person you love for the past 24 hours?
yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerno.

14. Do you keep memories?
yeah.. and ermm.. i re-examine them when i PMS.

15. Is love always on your side or the opposite?
shut up about love already.

16. Are you sick of love?
......lol..

17. Are you sick of the the question of love?
(*&^%$^&*)( whoever made this quiz is a lil shit :p but then again i'm doing it so i can't talk. lol.

18. What are you going to do tomorrow?
the even more amazing race :p

19. What do you want so badly now?
:)

20. What's the song that you last downloaded?
thank you by dido :p

21. How much do you love music?
quite alot :D

22. Do you play an instrument?
..i try.

23. What movie did you last watch?
THE LAKE HOUSE ;D

24. Do you believe in love forever?
yes. now go away.

25. What's in your mind now?
.......... :) stamped 'private&confidential'

26. What song is in your mind now?
thank you by dido *morning rain clouds up my window.. and i can't see at all...~

27. Five people to do this:
meh, i leave this open. whoever's bored enough.

bumming with my two favourite bums. one who happens to look a bit sleazy for some reason =| i think she was having a bad day in general.

this blog entry is dedicated to someone whom i care very much about :p and i would like u to.. reflect on this and.. maybe, stop looking and try to let go.

the burning question on my mind right now..
today at lunchtime, we were just sitting at the tables near the year 7 area like we usually do. and someone (i won't say who, but you can pretty much guess) was talking about guys lol. :p that certain someone happens to want a boyfriend very very much -.- but like, in her words.. 'someone she can perve on' ..

.. then it kinda struck me that i think the moment you really stop looking for it is when it finds you. and it definitely applies to everyone i think. sometimes you just gotta chill for abit and enjoy life instead of chasing a fantasy :p cos the perfect person doesn't exist :p and neither does the perfect relationship. cos it's life. and realistically, nothing is perfect or we would never appreciate the finer things in life because we have nothing to compare it to. and trust me, perfect relationships aren't always perfect on the inside.. people WORK to make it happen.

and seriously speaking about fantasies, are we all really searching for an ideal someone? does that mean that when we first meet people, we search for qualities of the perfect person in them?... or say.. you were madly in love with someone and you broke up with them.. and would you be looking for people who reminded you of them? and even if you found someone who was sufficiently similar, no two people are the same..would you ever be truly happy? would you be willing to settle for second best..? scenario : a goes out with b. a breaks up with b. b looks for someone like a, and finds c. b and c go out, b breaks up with c and c is looking for someone like b. =o

yay i know my alphabet :p

and another question that came up at lunch today. to all the girls out there, would you go out with a friend's ex? and when i say good friend, i mean.. like.. a really.. good friend. and she was still hurting.

:p you tell me.

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arggh my calculator decided to self-destruct.
now i'm sitting here like a stupid dummy trying to do calculus without a calculator.
*tears hair out*

>=(

was gonna do my english oral today but walked into class and saw this really smart girl with costumes and all.. i was like o.O and she was doing the same topic as me. -.- *beep*.

yet another uneventful day at school punctuated by tummy aches. :( periods suck, and being a girl can suck sometimes too. i say we deserve all the advantages girls get over guys just for going through periods. for guys, imagine being kicked in the balls continuously. you just want to keel over and die right? -.- so please be a little more understanding when we pms :p it's for a good reason.

methods test coming up next week and an english oral to get through this week :p rar, i hate orals. everytime i stand up in front of an audience, my heart pounds almost painfully and from the point of me leaving my chair onwards until the oral's over, my brain is officially detached from my body. -.- so you can see why i don't do too well in orals. anyway, i've been bitten by the shopping bug (and hair dying too) have been itching to dye my hair for ages now, but can't cos i think if i do anymore to my hair anytime soon, i might just kill it and commit hairsuicide. =o

so i was dreaming of shopping in my own little world today when we were reading aloud from Death of a Salesman. i was reading the character Happy's lines :D and yeh.. i kinda tuned out for abit only to jerk back to attention suddenly when mr. lyons called 'happy? happy????' lol. american literature isn't very much my thing - america being a relatively new country, and to be honest, lacking in authentic culture. it's a land of migrants and everyone who lives there for a few generations eventually loses their indentity and culture and merge seamlessly into the shapeless american mould. their main themes in literature range merely from consummerism to changing social conventions and structures as the world around evolves. rar rar rar and so on.

i need to stop eating chocolate.
seriously. or i will die soon. if you're a good friend, make me stop.