how come we always want what others have, but we're never satisfied with the things in our life?..yesss.. i'm talking about the girl with the perfect friends who always know what she feels, the girl with the guy with nice hair and dimples, the girl with perfect family relationship, the girl who gets to go shopping and blow any amount on anything.. maybe a gasp dress.. or.. yeah.. =)) someone with a boyfriend like daomingsi or lei in meteor garden ;)

psht.. material envies yeah? can't help it. watch shows like meteor garden and westside story [the asian versions] and you'll forever expect the kind of relationship in it.. (and yes, that person has to have watched meteor garden and westside story too) lol..! *nudge* right melina?

or maybe we just really envy how people can be so happy they practically float all the time.. and nothing can bother them. the kind of happiness you see with people in love.. or in like.. or where some hormones are having some serious chemical reactions inside them.. *bang bang boom* and produces all these endorphins.. and maybe ;) chocoholics like me just try to simulate that feeling with chocolate lol and end up getting bloated and fatter :( somehow that doesn't work so good yeh. lol.

i've been listening to This I Swear by Nick Lachey.. omg.. what a contrast yeh. on my playlist (which is organized alphabetically) i have two songs by Nick - the first one 'This I Swear'
and right after it is 'What's Left of Me' lol.. i can't help being amused.. this song title sounds so deflated compared to the 'bursting with promise' feeling you get from 'This I Swear' yes it was sweet while it lasted :p but as you can see.. there's not much left of Nick after his marriage with Jessica dissolved because he's probably at his last resorts wailing about What's Left of Him.-.-

by the way, Jessica had really bad boob surgery and now one of her boobs look squarish >.<

omg.. whatever i typed just now disappeared. *&^$ blogspot.

happy birthday em. :) i love you.

hell, i love all my friends :D YES YOU GUYS.. sorry for being crabby whenever im tearing my hair out with probability or shit.

aiya. moral of the story : live for today's moment before it becomes a fleeting memory of yesterday's what could have been. that's the root of the problem - we never appreciate and ask for more.

so yes, this is an affirmation: I AM HAPPY WITH MY LIFE. =)

even though daomingsi is not in it. :(

i miss u guys in singapore.