UGH. valentine's day i think is getting me all queasy. it's the feeling of like having this really big bubble (although not exactly happy) kinda inflating in you. you feel like you're gonna swell up and burst. and this is 2 hours after i just blogged all high and happy and the world all good because of the dress. but after my shower (where it obviously cleared my head) i came online and saw all the mushy nicknames. and now i PINE.Looking at your picture from when we first met
You gave me a smile that I could never forget
And nothing I could do could protect me from you that night
Wrapped around your finger
Always in my mind
The days they blend 'cause we stayed up all night
Yeah, you and I were everything, everything to me
I just want you to know that I’ve been fighting to let you go
Some days I’ll make it through, and then there’s nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there’s a day you’ll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again, just want you to know
All the doors are closing
I’m trying to move ahead
And deep inside I wish it was me instead
My dreams are empty from the day
The day you slipped away
And I just want you to know that I’ve been fighting to let you go
Some days I’ll make it through, and then there’s nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there’s a day you’ll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again, just want you to know
That since I lost you, I lost myself
I know I can’t fake it, there’s no one else
I just want you to know that I’ve been fighting to let you go
Some days I’ll make it through, and then there’s nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there’s a day you’ll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again, just want you to know
song dedication to - :)
i feel unmotivated and lost these days. like i'm simply going through day after day just because it's routine. i don't wake up and feel perky to get to school or something. i sort of drag myself up in a half-moronic semi-spastic state and make myself look somewhat presentable and sort of drag my way to school where i begin that routine again. it's so much of habit that i don't even think, i just do it. day after day seems to go by quite meaninglessly. i don't connect with some of my friends anymore. life is depressing.
