i'm back early today, taking full advantage of my double spares. today wasn't too good - stumbled out of bed - i mean, the sofa (it's my bed while the grandparents are here) and headed to school really blearily with stomach pangs every few minutes or so - which i totally attribute to an overdose of milo powder. i never knew you could eat milo powder by itself, but yesterday was my first time and i overdosed. it did occur to me that i might die of diabetes of something today, but i survived with "only" a horrible stomachache. got to my locker alive, (i remember thinking why is summer so cold?!) but anyway successfully got my books and bag in, slammed the door shut, and slid down to the floor in relief; i know i must've looked like a total loser but my stomach really hurt..and i jumped up again because - here, this is my train of thought: sliding down against the lockers..no usual clanking of keys in my pocket as i hit the floor..waitaminute..omgomg..my keys are locked in my locker!! stomachache all forgotten in the ensuing panic attack, i ran to look for my sister in the C-blocks. luckily she had a spare key or i think i would've had to get the coordinators to break my lock like a total loser in the corridor. anyway, double english was good, sarah, em and i ended up talking heaps more and once again it surprises me how you think you haven't prejudged people based on the group they hang out with, when you actually have a sort of stereotypical impression lying dormant at the back of your mind. sarah turned out to be really really nice :) i'm glad that she's in my english class! then recess time, i went with em to get forms for cross-age tutoring - i think i'd like it :) and then got some food and spent the rest of recess talking to rangoli. she has the most beautiful eyes and she's so pretty! she's also really really nice, which means more than her looks :) and then it was double gen..pretty funny, i couldn't figure out how to work my calculator and spent most of the lesson agonizing over it. ray called me technology incompetent and i threatened to chuck something at him :p and lolol, jack isn't really that scary after all. we have a good general m. class, we really do :) pris and i couldn't stop cracking up at first because it was so classic - we talk about someone and we walk right by them :p it was hilarious. then lunchtime, after chasing around mrs longo (i thought she was the teacher with the hairy underarms and i was right) anyway, we attempted to audition for choir but mr. fullerton was really busy so we'll go back thursday lunchtime. i just happened to glance across just then and discovered my grandpa's sleeping on the sofa upright, again. how can anyone sleep that much?? he hits any surface and he sleeps. he eats food and he sleeps. lol. what a snoozer :p anyway, the topic of formals came up during lunchtime (i'd decided to sit with the rest of the group for lunch)
the idea of formals make me nervous. that's that whole shopping for the dress thing (which i really can't be bothered, i mean, i do like dressing up and all but i'm awfully fussy about dresses and i don't really wanna go to the formal in any old dress, i want a special and really nice one.) but there's one this year and there's one next year, and there's that whole lot of trouble finding a different dress next year that's even hotter than a special dress this year. and it doesn't just stop at dresses. you have to bring someone to the formal and i mean..i don't know any guy well enough here as friends to be comfortable enough to ask them to the formal with me. if i were in singapore i would, but here.. it's a totally different story. my best guy friend's in singapore. everyone seems to have someone to bring and pris and em suggested i bring eddie..and i dunno. it's kinda awkward. i'd feel like a total loser if he was obliged to go because i didn't have anyone to bring. i'm sure he would be nice enough to if i did ask him, and well.. i dunno considering the nature of the feelings going around between the other pairings, me and ed would probably be the only just-friends pair. i know who're going by themselves too, but.. ideally, not. my group of friends all seem to have someone to bring; well then again there's some who don't but..ugh..'cos..pris'll probably bring chris, gloria'll probably bring tim..em has her friend from ivanhoe..melina too..and where does that leave me?...oh poop.
i feel totally lazy now. i kinda "don't have" work but i do at the same time well if i wanna be hardworking.. hmm..gloria just left my house..anyway..i got zm's song stuck in my head..misery by the moffats..gosh..his depressing countenance is so getting to me =