first, i totally have to declare that i hate my wireless. it's gone all spaz on me and keeps getting me d/ced. how gay is that!! :( i can never hold a conversation properly. grr. okay, today was the first day of school! i got woken up at like frickin' 8.30 in the morning even though i didn't need to be up for another hour. huh. my sister thundering around. =/ well anyway i suppose i'd better get used to waking up again. school takes up so much energy, i feel pulverized after what, 1 period of general maths, one assembly, and one period of methods. anyway, i got to school. screams and all when i saw friends (of course! hadn't seen them for soo long.) well, melina and bena both got fringes, the straight ones. they look so cute! :) mishy has red chunks in her hair, janean's sooo black now, kareena's fringe is straight..we got to the sports centre and had our first of the boring welcome-back-to-school speeches. then split up into our form groups by period three. i'm in 11G with all the hardcorists people :p and cass. but who cares anyway; form groups don't matter. you hardly see your form anyway. :) sooo, my timetable is as follows :ENG11A,CYS11A,LIT11A,MGM11E,PSY12D,MAM11Hi suspect i'm lonering for english and psych, at least till i make some new friends x) turns out tina (alp) is in my lit and chinese. bena's in chinese too. we have mr yu again! i'm actually not too traumatized by that piece of news, i sort of suspected it anyway. but mr yu is okay i suppose. except for the spittle that gathers at the corner of his mouth, he's not the worst of teachers. he just argues a ridiculous lot and gets cranky over small things. oh, i got a top locker - 166. i was hoping for a middle one 'cos it suits my height perfectly and i don't really have to bend and stuff, but i'd rather a top locker than the bottom one any day. count myself lucky already! hahah gloria and i swapped locker-mates, she has lahiru now :( and i have lili. hm. well, more of that remains to be seen anyway. i'm not in any of the same classes as gloria. so period 4 began and i panicked about finding G1 - it was gen. maths with mr mark. yay! good teacher for MGM! and good class too! i bumped into kareena on the way to look for G1 and i was pretty relieved to see her. And surprise! Pris walked into MGM G3, so did ray and all J yippee. Assembly was boring as usual and I dozed off, and for MAM I happily discovered I’m with em and jan J oh whoops, I forgot about that catcher in the rye homework and I have English tomorrow. Darn. :p be seeing ya, all. Love.

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseech you
Simple things that make you run away
Catch you if I can

Tears fall down your face
The taste is something new
Something that I know
Moving on is easiest when I am around you

So bottle up old love
And throw it out to sea
Watch it away as you cry
A year has past
The seasons go

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseech you
Simple things that make you run away
Catch you if I can

Waiting, day to day it goes through
My lips are sealed for her
My tongue is
Tied to a dream of being with you
To settle for less is not what I prefer

So bottle up old love
And throw it out to sea
Watch it away as you cry
A year has past
The seasons go

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseech you
Simple things that make you run away
Catch you if I can

Summer time, the nights are so long
The leaves fall down, and so do I to the arms of a friend
Winter nights
My bedside is cold, for I am gone
And spring blossoms you to me

so i wonder why this song's stuck in my head =x
gloria asked for my blog add last night. don't know 
why i didn't give it to her. like she said, it's not that 
private anyway. it really isn't private at all. hm.
i feel retarded =\ am i making a total spaz out of
myself here? i really really can't tell. i just spent like,
one hour hunting for my shirt. why do i even bother
when my mood's not in it? let's just say, i'm out of
it these days..and yes, i know why. no, i don't like the
reason. it's been plaguing me forever.by the way,
those sunset beach pictures of st. kilda are taken by 
me and i kid you not. superb photography skills.
*preens* i feel like going back there just for that
snatch of serenity before the crazy school term
begins again. i wonder if the day could've been
better spent watching big momma 2 or hanging
out with glo or just going back to st. kilda - even
though the weather's quite dreary today. well, gotta
go shower and get ready for guests tonight - and get
ready for school..oh my gosh..my sister and i swapped
uniform sizes and mine appears to like, drag while her
skirt has become a mini. =/ the unfairness of it all.!? i'm
wearing a smaller size uniform that makes me look like
a walking tent. she wears a bigger size and looks like her
skirt fits perfectly.where's the justice in that?

oh, the wonders of fake tan are marvelous indeed. :) today was rather uneventful, a lazy sort of day to spend the second last day before school. chinese new year and all, it didn't feel very much like it. after church i overate as usual, succumbing to the temptations of duck. lazed around online for abit and decided i absolutely had to get off my bum before i became a walking ball of flobber. i did want to go to optus to check out my z250i phone but it's quite expensive, plan and all. shall see if dad can upgrade his plan and get it for me in singers. XD so we went to the beach. surprisingly although it's a sunday afternoon, st kilda wasn't as packed as i expected it to be. the last time i was there, it was like a human crush of traffic and totally unenjoyable. it's like.. -beach? what beach? all i see are throngs of people! today was a gratifying change. the day was cooling and the salty breeze was blowing. i always thought the beach was overrated, but i think today i finally understand the beauty of it. just sitting on the sand with the waves lapping in gently near you and the breeze blowing around and the bright blue sky with the sun slowly going down above, rays of light filtering through the clouds.. it's a feeling of peace and solitude. the kind that's hard to get nowadays. for those precious few moments, it's just you and the sea. what a moment, right? -interrupted by a stupid seagull. it was observing me with its disgusting beady eyes and trying to hop near me sneakily. i tell you, it was eyeing my bottle of much coveted fake tan. yup. fake tan. back to it, i tell you, it does wonders. when i applied it i thought, i'm so gonna look cheap, like i have no time to get a real tan and no money to get a good fake tan. but hey! it looks good! and real. ahhh :) i am satisfied. XD one more day till school starts. hooray.

reading pride and prejudice, i'm so glad i live in the 21st century. i really can't abide talking overly long sentences and being hypocritishly polite. gosh, they even insult or snub people off politely. i say, if you're gonna be rude, you might as well be your rudest. there's no joy in chinese new year this year, no excitement at the smell of incoming red packets, not much except for the droll of doing it because it's tradition. it's quite sad, really. talking to timmy last night i realised how different we are. even though timmy's half singaporean/half malaysian and so am i, we're on two different planes altogether. timmy says "g'day mate" and i say "hello." timmy says "cheers" and i say "thank you" timmy says "barbie" and i say "barbeque". he says "mate" and you'd have to pay me to say that. he's as aussie as they come. (him and zubu) and i'm just somewhere in the uncomfortable middle of having no real identity, singaporean or otherwise. maurice is weird too, he's hongkie/singaporean but for some reason, he sounds american. =\ something went wrong somewhere. lol! at least glo and i and pris (sort of) are more into the whole cny thing. i wonder how long it'll take of living here for me to become like.. so.. unfussed with cny at all.

so..let's talk about internet romances. do they ever work out? the idealist in me quite takes to the idea of finding the perfect person over the unliving, unfeeling internet. =\ dead and cold technology it can be, but when it's used.. oh, the emotion it can convey. it's quite sad, really, how some people are awfully quiet in real life but talk so much on msn. and how you get to know a person and build the very basis or foundation of your relationship (friendship or otherwise) with a person over the internet. what's with that? - food for thought for today. and even then, the internet can be deceiving. sometimes i reckon humans are just too smart for their own good at all =\ and yes, i fully like the idea of an old-fashioned romance - getting to know the person with the human touch. no internet romances for me!

well! it's chinese new year! not that it makes a difference here anyway. it's not like anyone cares. i thought spending chinese new year without the usual evils of chinese new year goodies to add on bulk to me would be a good thing. (i was trying to think positive here.) but no, with grandma around, i think that thought has quite gone down the drain. i'm just back from sam's 21st! timmeh and i learnt to mix music and DJ. i'm awfully proud of myself at the moment. lol! and i made a discovery. standing on a chair, i'm STILL shorter than damien. oh, the humiliation. the only consolation i have is that he's not asian, and he's 195 - which is basically classified "alien" already. he's a whole 40cm taller than me! oooh and i saw tina and trannie today! i did miss them bits. :) trannie, glo, and i drew our ideal chikopeh complete with monobrow, beady eyes, nose hair, beard, stubble and mole with hair growing out. and tina did his awesome liquid raving dance! XD o.O tina. chick magnet him! and mau mau and i had a balloon fight and i absolutely owned him; prisci and i dueted eternal flame by atomic kitten and she owned me :( oh well, just by a little little eensy bit though. XD by the way, cheap accessories are the crappest. i paid ten bucks for the whole set and it like, fell apart on me. grr. well, tomorrow's a new day to look forward to 'cos it's time to dress up! yay us girls!!

summer's an absolute biaaaatch. i mean it. when the whole pavement smells like sizzling asphalt when it rains, you know it's gonna be a roasting day. my day started off quite bad. my dad somehow never gets the hint that during holidays, people who actually function mundanely sleep in. you'd think he'd be privy to that living with two teenage girls. but nooooooooo. he chose to barge in to well, his room. (because my grandparents are here, my sister and i are now new residents of The Floor Under Parents' Bed.) and holler at the top of his lungs "TIME TO WAKE UP!" please. as if his incessent thundering into the room (yes, the floorboards complained) wasn't enough to wake us up. anyway, chinatown parking was terrible.

i'm back from my hip hop lessons. it was awesome! uh, i'm too tired to blog and continue like eight convos at the same time. but here's on ridiculous snatch of convo for your amusement:

1/27/2006		10:49:46 PM		_:+*xinni*+:_so no matter what the cost i will go for You, no matter what it takes I'm Yours..		JUST SMILE BACK.		LOOK AT YOU!
1/27/2006		10:49:49 PM		_:+*xinni*+:_so no matter what the cost i will go for You, no matter what it takes I'm Yours..		JUST SMILE BACK.		trying to make ur eyes big
1/27/2006		10:49:58 PM		JUST SMILE BACK.		_:+*xinni*+:_so no matter what the cost i will go for You, no matter what it takes I'm Yours..		..
1/27/2006		10:50:06 PM		_:+*xinni*+:_so no matter what the cost i will go for You, no matter what it takes I'm Yours..		JUST SMILE BACK.		HAHAH :P
1/27/2006		10:50:07 PM		JUST SMILE BACK.		_:+*xinni*+:_so no matter what the cost i will go for You, no matter what it takes I'm Yours..		MY EYES ARE BIG
1/27/2006		10:50:13 PM		_:+*xinni*+:_so no matter what the cost i will go for You, no matter what it takes I'm Yours..		JUST SMILE BACK.		IN YOUR DREAMS
1/27/2006		10:50:21 PM		_:+*xinni*+:_so no matter what the cost i will go for You, no matter what it takes I'm Yours..		JUST SMILE BACK.		I DONT EVEN HAVE TO OVERSTRETCH MY EYES TO BE BIGGER THAN YOURS
1/27/2006		10:50:30 PM		JUST SMILE BACK.		_:+*xinni*+:_so no matter what the cost i will go for You, no matter what it takes I'm Yours..		..
1/27/2006		10:50:37 PM		JUST SMILE BACK.		_:+*xinni*+:_so no matter what the cost i will go for You, no matter what it takes I'm Yours..		mine`s natural big black eyes

sitting in my small, albeit rapidly overheating dining room, i have a couple of realizations.
1) i suck at monopoly. i'm getting owned and it's awful for my self esteem. somehow, bad things always happen to me in monopoly - eg. made to pay various fines, taxes, and rents. i just wasn't cut out for it :p

2) the font in my computer's gone all weird on me. i can't figure it out, but oh well. hopefully it'll be okay soon.

3) psych 1/2 is frickin' boring. no, it's not the fascinating subject we all think it is. it involves incessant droning on and on about ERA (i forgot what it stands for; i think it's Empiratic Research Activities) reports and brain functions and neurosystems and all that load of poo i thought only weird med students could undertake. freakishly i found out they have to analyse their own pee at some point in their education. i mean, how absolutely yuck.

4) if the weather doesn't ease up soon, i shall have a hernia. it's some internal combustion i think. i fully think i'm capable of that experience in oh, let's say, a 40 degree heat.

5) linda's jealous of me and zhiming! haha! :p yeah, WHATEVER, cos we're close and you're not. nah kidding. zhiming's cool :) and so's linda. i miss her very much :)

6) i suppose i'm doing work experience in a law firm then. oh well, life's full of it's pitfalls and disappointments, but it's okay. i'll just work harder next time.

7) i just got owned by tim and gloria pretending to be each other. seriously, those two are so alike it scares me. i refuse to talk to them now anymore! they have their own little private jokes that no one understands *probably just me since i'm always so lost anyway* and they're ALWAYS teasing me, eg. FUNGUSMILO. =p not that i mind, but it's hard to keep up with their blackmama jokes and stuff. by the way, for the innocents reading this, black mama is a black-chick-strictly porno site. DO NOT visit unless you want to be traumatized forever.

8) maurice is the slowest slowpoke in the world, and i'm not kidding. from what i've learnt today, i'm making a hypothesis that maurice will be dumped by future girlfriend due to extreme lateness and extreme slowness. and it's okay for girls anyway, cos girls look good when they're late. but definitely not guys. i beg to differ about female chauvinism, but it's true.

9) i've missed mishy and bena and jan and mel. :) they're awesome. i can't wait for school to start! firstly, for SPARES. i do like the idea of having spares :p time for yourself! and the independance of it all appeals to me. year 11's off to a banging start.

10) today was australia day, but no one gives a poo. yeah. i don't think i even fully know the australian national anthem, and i DEFINITELY don't know the pledge, if they have one.

11) it's good to be home. though i miss people. :)

(: take care all.

hey all! i've been back for a total of two days and it's just been crazy! yes, i've missed home dearly. and the flight back was a piece of poo. total disaster. ask me if you don't already know. a short summary of china's trip : well i think i've seen things that i'll carry around in my heart forever and it really makes me wanna go on more mission trips! i think i've never been exposed to such poverty, and i honestly appreciate everything i have now. i've grown and learnt, and each day is just a new day that adds testimony to the power of prayer. :) i also am alot closer to my churchmates now and i miss the mission team heaps! singapore's holiday: firstly, the weather was absolutely crap! raining cats and dogs everyday. how depressing. i did lots and lots of shopping, and eating as expected. but there were quite a few unexpected things - changes i saw in people, some good, some bad. all the same it took me aback for a short while but i'm over it now and yeah! it was really good! certain things you guys know about *cough*fungusmilo*cough* hahaha! but yeah.. :) i miss them all heaps. i had a chance to be closer to some people and i'll always appreciate their friendship :D lots to do now - psych homework, english homework (catcher in the rye is the world's most boring book.) and stationery to buy, school to get ready for, piano lessons to reorganize..woo! this year's off to a bang already. and my laptop is finally running for the first time in months! :) love all.!

hello hello hello!!
well, it's been a long time, i must say. so many things've happened! it's probably impossible to sum it all up. i'll update all of you personally when i get back, which is in five days! i should just blog about my day today. :) well, i wake up these days cos i have a human alarm clock who msgs me in the morning :p and if not i don't think i would be stuffed dragging myself up and out. oh, the shopping has been absolutely heavenly. clothes galore! i'm crawling up the shoe addicts list with tracy coming in first and debbie and i tying for second, priscilla and gloria coming in third, and yiing and my sister coming in fourth. :) three pairs of boots, two pairs of wedges and two pairs of flats. mmm, shoes. oh, and these days, i have an insatiable craving for milo. it's simply awesome! the yummy comforting taste of milo. ahhh, i think i'm addicted. :D well yes, it seems like the world was at plaza singapura today. yiing,myself,my sister and moses were bumming there for abit. originally i planned to get my watch and nothing else, but i ended up getting two pairs of shoes (one was an absolute steal for just 10 bucks, how could i resist?) and the other.. *drool* and also a pair of shorts and a nice top to go with the shoes. i quote the famous shoppamaster, tracy: "it's all about the matching!" it does kinda suck that most people aren't free to go out with me on account of school and all, but i've been happily enough occupied :) i miss all you bums back in melbourne!! yes jan, i'm hunting for your cross. i'm still trying to get the perfect size and perfect number of diamantes. i miss worshipping. anyway tomorrow visiting school! :D and DEFINITELY getting pictures with everyone. ZM INCLUDED.!

so no matter what the cost I will go for You
no matter what it takes, I'm Yours
because you paid the price at calvary
I give You my whole life, I'm Yours!