before i get started on the mountain of maths that's just arrived in front of me..(courtesy to me missing 2 continuous days of school..) yesterday, i had a small relapse on my eyes - unlucky me, and another appointment tomorrow at the hospital again. today was the 3in6 media competition!..such a random topic.."bark" -.-" and had to include the line "his bark is worse than his bite." i mean..there aren't much variations for bark. so to be creative..i thought..let's not go "bark" in the literal sense (meaning no woof-woof or no tree bark) but maybe like..do a "commercial" or something where..bark..is a product..and "his bark is worse than his bite" being the catch phrase. kareena went for a superhero-villian thing. in the end, the whole group went tree-bark..(entirely too literal i think) but oh well, it was an experience, filming and editing and messing with sounds and effects and all in six hours! quite an achievement :)

anyway, i've just randomly browsed through some blogs and spaces. and i have a deeper insight..somehow on things that i didn't understand so much before. i have this feeling that i'm a little lost where certain areas of my life is concerned, but what scares me is that i'd rather not "find" what's missing. (not that i actually know what it is. feelings are so complicated sometimes.) ughh. i have random chinese soundtracks stuck in my head..alrite..off for a shower and finish off my maths before i get too behind.

ughh. it's frickin cold and i'm frozen! i wanna squirm under my covers and fall asleep, but that's really too unnatural and out of my living habits at 11pm. an hour more to go for bedtime! hmm..i can't wait for 3 more weeks till school ends. (unofficially) =p i mean, who's going to go to school? i heard they make you remove all the gum that people have been sticking under the tables for years. i swear, it doesn't make any difference cos the next year comes, and people stick new gum underneath anyway. anyway, it's just a bit more till the end of the year, and i'm pumped! during the holidays..i'm going to..
-spend time with all the people i cherish. (i don't care doing what. well, yes i do. no one's making me go hiking or anything like that.)
-bake. i reckon i should be a little more feminine. and besides, baking smells really nice and the best thing is you don't have to reach in with your fingers and squish it like raw meat or whatever.
-shop. i find myself constantly getting sick of the clothes i wear. i wanna buy nice clothes :) and i need more clothes anyway.
-save money, so that i actually have money to shop. ._.
-plant a flower :D
-sponsor a kid. (the world vision thing.) do i get to pick my kid?
-eat more veggies and lose weight :D -> grr! get off the m&m addictions already.!
-do something nice for the people i love :) (even if it involves ironing for mum.)
-flop on the sofa and gaze at the ceiling with a happy grin on my face, totally stress free and having absolutely nothing running through my mind.
-watch a million and one blockbuster videos. =D go movie addict, me.
-find a quiet spot to think and study and focus and pray and all the "quiet things" i always watch those movies and everyone has a special spot, like a tree or something. but trees always have ants and all that crap, and the tree in my "garden" is pink and dropping heaps of petals now. besides, it'd be really random to be sitting in my garden studying ._. or praying. and what happens if it rains?
-get tan. yes, i think being pasty is really unattractive. (for me.)
-get ready for my mission trip.
mmm..what a long list, and i realized i'm not going to get everything done during the holidays..ok..maybe some should go into my "life-list"..things i wanna do in my life..
-travel around the world. throw a coin in the trevi fountain :D view paris from the eiffel. sip disgusting black expresso in tiny cups. sit on any a camel in any random desert. visit the pyramids. floating markets. shopping.disneyland :D walk along a perfect beach with no people and find the perfect shell. swim with dolphins. (nah. its overrated. and frickin cold too, and we're not allowed to touch them.)snorkel in the great barrier reef. find a "pride rock" just like the one in Lion King and sit on it.
-go to a real circus, and stop getting freaked out by clowns.
-see a shooting star :D and make a wish on it. while sitting on pride rock.(see above).
-sit on a water bed.
-hear whales sing :)
-ride a wild horse.
-get a cat and name it boo and it shall have kittens named booboo. or booby if it's a girl i guess._. nah kidding.
-go skydiving, and parachuting. (is that the same?) and try to not die of a heart attack on the way down.
-bake gingerbread men for christmas :D and have a real snowy white christmas.
-walk on a mountain. like a real one, with snow. and glacier-walk too.
-make a huge snowman, and pour syrup on it and make my very own ice kachang snowman.
-while i'm at it i might as well make snow angels too.
-walk on water. :D
-buy a nemo.
-make a difference somehow. to leave my footprint. i wanna experience everything!

ughhhhhuuh...i declare my brain missing!i've positively forgotten every single thing i learnt since the beginning of term 3. not good considering exams are in 3 weeks time..i really need to get down to work sooo badly, but it's sunday!._. anyway i was really inspired by someone today -> Caris! for all her sickness this past year, she's been so brave and determined, living her life as a normal person despite everything. I never fully appreciated how much health matters until i was sick for a six weeks. during those six weeks, it felt like i was going mad; my head hurt so much and i swallowed so many pills that i think it's more than i've ever had in my entire life. Caris? she's been sick since the beginning of this year. She's in year 12, doing the asian 5.(the hardest subjects ever.) And she's still doing VCE despite missing SACS. Her courage really touches my heart. On a more irritated note, i really am about to flush my laptop down the toilet. (i am THIS close) it's sooo full of crazy pop ups (seriously.it's soo annoying to try and click something, and then an obscene Adultfriendfinder window pops up at random and you find yourself clicking something like.."group sex") nooo..it's not funny. and i've got all this crap on my laptop, and my internet connection's wonky. grrr! alright, time for my shower and more math. yippee.

uuugh! i think i might as well change my name to Gloria Wong right now. i''m turning into her! for the first time since..really really long ago, i took a nap. i know, unbelievable! (for me, that is) i never have naps! haha..maybe it's history, but i normally like history. unlike pris, i don't spend my history lessons half-snoozing. but i have to admit, mao zedong can get excessively boring with all his crazy schemes and reforms and ideas for china. what a whacko. i've still got a page left on my report to complete, but i honestly can't be bothered. ooh, and my essay introduction to write on who's to blame for the tragedy of romeo and juliet. really, if you ask me, i think romeo's to blame..that guy is stupid. oh, and i did plan on doing some science too. ._. ooh anyway! planet shakers conference and hillsongs conference next year! january and july respectively. yay! oh wait. i was getting really excited and then i realized i won't be here for the planet shakers conference. oh well, maybe the hillsongs one then. *yawwwn* omgosh..after napping in the afternoon (i woke up at 9+) i'm sleepy again?..it's only 11..this week's really flew by so quickly! mmph, and so many things've happened.
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not fun anymore =(=(
...YES IT IS! i just haven't had time to blog recently.
janean wants me to say something funny:
TODAY .. janean said something really funny then i laughed for an hour then went to sleep cos i was so exausted from laughing. HA..HA..HA..ha..ha..-__-"
ANYWAY. as i was saying, hm. debz going crazy with her VCE stress and doing crazier things.. (yes, it's sooo getting to u!) rushing to finish editing that stupid media film assignment. speaking of that, nathan is pissing me off soooo bad.! i mean, i really TRY and all with that guy, but NOOOO. he even manages to get nice people like Kareena pissed. (when you get someone like kareena pissed, you qualify as a smelly fart.) and guess what? he's not even german! all along he's like.."im from germany" (complete with german lisp and all) but hes like..AUSSIE. his dad isn't even german. the german one in his family is like.. his grandma or something. i knooow..im obsessing about small details, but he's just soooo rude! and sooo whiny! i can't even try to bare my teeth in a fake smile to him anymore. my fake smile's beginning to look like i want to eat him. (which i don't. yuck.) see! this is an example of how UGH he can be..
kareena: what about hannah?
me: nup. hannah's like..not relevant.
nathan: don't be so negative don't say no.. i don't see you thinking of any other titles.
kareena: omg..what's wrong with you..why do you take everything so personally?
me:..i wasn't even talking to you.
and then..like..frickin five seconds later..
amanda: what about maggie?
nathan: no.
i mean...what the heck!! and i honestly don't know about him, but i'm sure everyone else knows the words "excuse me" when they're trying to get to something. no one just pushes and shoves.
ok..after ranting about nathan, i'm not so cut anymore..anyway this is the last project i'll have to work with him for..gosh..i do feel sorry for him, but he does really ask for it sometimes.
enough about nathan. i was a complete ditz today..forgot my locker key, my ID..-.-" but it was a pretty bludge day..yes..anyway..pris and glo and i had a very weird conversation about farts and eggs..now i can't really remember what it was..but i think the sun was getting to us.

2 consecutive hours of CSI..and quite a few tim tams later..i feel quite sleepy. and i'm supposed to be doing a detailed report on Mao Zedong's political career!

*grumble* as expected, the parents said no. but then again it's not really a big surprise. (i still harbour hope in my heart =p especially if i study hard for the exams!) which are sooner than i realized. i mean..3 weeks time..not including this week. that's pretty quick for the year to be over already!anyway..*hyperventilates* it's an hour to the woodwind soiree, and the good news is i don't feel like puking..(yet) but the bad thing is i really hope i don't get one of those itchy-air-bubble feelings in my throat or nose or ears or whatever, at least not till humoresque is over. we're on first item!..talk about scary openings.wondering what to do with my clarinet next year.might continue..might not.million and one things to do next year - tuition and work(hopefully) mmph. today was year 12 muck up day! or dress up day as they call it. the year 12's are apparently pretty tame this year. short of the few stink-bombs and water-bombs nothing much happened. i came to school this morning expecting a normal day (well, typical. it was monday and i'd just rolled out of bed..grumpily.) and first period was quite normal too. i'd forgotten that i've been entered into the 3-in-6 film competition. (see what i mean by a million and one things to do? year 10/11 film night's coming up next week as well.) and then during history, i walked by the B corridor..it looked more like dress up day. (the interesting ones were later to come.) ok! so this was history:
pris: have you seen the mexicans with the moustaches? and the bananas in pyjamas?
xinni: nooo..i saw the boring bunch..some girl in a cheong-AAAAAAAAAARRRGHHHH!!
(guy dressed and made up as a girl walks into history class.) it was highly disturbing given that his boobs..(no wait, i saw this more disturbing guy with ping-pong balls as his boobs.)..were stuffed with paper of some sort. apparently guys cross-dressing is an old idea. geeee. well..during history we were visited by the pimps and hos..hmm..firemen strippers..wearing g-strings..(guys wearing g-strings? = ) ..science was pretty funny. we did the crash test dummy experiment and our dummy's head and legs kept falling off ._. so bena and kept having to run back around the ramp to fix the dummy's various body parts back on. maths..ok..not going there. i screwed up the test. oh well, it doesn't count for much in my final grade. english was sooo slack, the teacher didn't even arrive and we had free sausage sizzle because apparently the SRC grossly overestimated the year 12's appetites. =p hah..no problem anyway because there're always a couple of hungry year 10s who happen to be the SRC teacher's history class..haha..sooo...description of more year 12's..there were raunchy nurses..i swear, those dresses were more like tops..it barely covered their arses..=p and one of them unfortunately sat on something wet..which created a wet spot on her white uniform..as you can imagine..wet white stuff soon becomes transparent..=p and we saw more disturbing tanky guys wearing the girls' summer dresses. (yes, the tablecloth ones.) and it was really traumatizing because they were hairy. and it looked wrong. like a hairy gorilla trying to squeeze into a dress! we even saw one guy bending over to take a drink..and (prepare yourself) obviously as a guy, he wasn't used to wearing a dress..and the wind bleeeeeeew..and his dress flipped up..giving us a view of..white..lacy..(we ran out of words.) we're still debating on the topic of whether guys can actually wear panties, because that's what it looked alot like._. oh, and some girl took off her pants and was walking around in her underwear during lunch. hahah! crazy year 12s. i think VCE reaaaally gets to you.whoops. i'd better go get ready to go back to school. wish me luck! i hope i don't choke on my reed or anything.

KLKLKLKLKLKLKLKLKLKLKLKLKLKLKLKL!!
i wanna goooooo!!
cross your fingers and pray hard that the parents say OK.
haha..i think i'm getting a little overexcited about the end of year. after all, there's like nine more weeks to go, and exams to get pass. anyway, i got out of bed precisely fifteen minutes before worship practice (not good) and walked in with awful hair and eyes barely open; for the next half an hour i was replying everyone with "huh?" =p takes me that long to wake up. anyway, after worship practice, pris and i took the longest walk (well, it wasn't that long come to think of it, but we made quite alot of stops on the way : fish and chips store, video store, pris's house, before getting to gloria's house. that girl has the funniest parents! the dad's like offering to do everything. (aww, how nice of him though). and the mum's just so candid and bubbly. it's quite the change from my household. and we watched a walk to remember (again, yes) and pigged out and basically bummed the rest of the afternoon away..playing music and singing and just planning for the end of the year..really pray everything goes smoothly.!!

*giggle* i feel like i just drank a glass of bubbles. *bubble* =D it's friday! how nice are the feelings of fridays, the feeling of knowing that you've got two whole days to "sleep in"..well sort of. right now i feel like walking to blockbuster video to get a video and indulge myself. (: and then tomorrow it's completing chinese and science assignment, and on sunday i'm heading to mish's house after church and then to kareena's for filming. (technically my weekend's not really relaxing anymore) school was draggy today i reckon..anyway, janean came over afterwards and we just bummed around taking silly photos and eating chocolate =p i love youuuu janean. *happy sigh* i'm just bumming listening to music and being plain lazy. doesn't it just feel awesome!i love my socks =D everyday i change out of school uniform but i hate taking off my socks cause it's awfully cold ._. and i hate looking at my stubby toes anyway with its horrible nails. (and no it's not horrible because i bite my toes. what caveman bites their toes?!) oh dear, the new black eyed peas song is a little obscene. "my hump my hump my hump my lovely little lumps." :x *wriggles toes* heh =D i have a whole friday night to bum around and i'm going to enjoy every second of it. hmm, what's a good video to borrow? nono, scratch that, i've got heaps of unwatched videos at home atm. i feel like daaaanciiiing i'm so high! nanannanannanana x) someone please help me suddenly i have all these random obscene "adultfriendfinder.com" pop-ups when i go into friendster, it's the most disgusting pictures ever..!!helppppp.

poor janean and poor lee. ( the bird, not the guy.)

it's one of those RAR moments.i'm overstuffed..frickin full..and sooo tired. slept late last night due to onslaught of random conversations. and it's so confusing!*stomps around* pffft. why can't people say what they mean and mean what they say? nooo, they leave you to ponder certain things which mess up your mind even more. ugh, anyway, i have to draft my hist essay, do more romeo and juliet..(really, love overcame hate, but everyone died anyway, so what's the point?!) my chinese mid-autumn festival assignment (which i'm having sooo much trouble translating..i might as well not be chinese anyway since i can't do it for crap), and my science bibliography. plus i have filming on sunday night at kareena's. four days back into school and it's a whirlwind of things happening all at once.. feels like my body's going along but my mind's lost somewhere behind..i just hope the weeks fly by and before i know it i'm on a plane to china!

ughh!! my mum!!
-piano lesson-
teacher: so how's your practicing going?
me: good =D
teacher: did u get practice time in everyday?
me: y-
mum: no.
me:...*glare*
mum: no what, everyday see you never practice.
me:...*double glare* i did okay!
teacher: nevermind._.
i'm tiiired. back from another hospital appointment. 40% of eyesight down in the left eye. colorblindness more ore less okay, right eye back to normal. gotta go back again in 3 weeks..as well as to RCH..anyway, i've more or less caught up in work..still kinda sticking to my "plan"..mum's gone psycho and i'm really stoned..i had piano lesson straight after my hospital appointment, and i came home and did homework..and now i'm really..really..stoned..kay i think i mentioned that. anyway pris is back in melbourne! *cheers* i love my friends. =) i'd go mad without them and their constant encouragement and just being there.

first day of term 4! back into those recycled-tablecloth summer dresses ._. but yay, aunty dropped off our jumpers and so i didn't look as silly as i thought i would. *grins* school was awesome today even though the work's piling up on me, but i stuck to my plan..(well it's day 1..we shall see how i go by the end of the week..who knows..by the end of six weeks..) anyway, talked to yan today and realized how much i miss her..oO..i got a bludge day tomorrow..and another appointment at hospital again..shucks..so troublesome..piano too..oh..whoops =D forgot to practice. oh well! okay, it's 11.41, and i'm off to read the bible before i get to bed by 12. darn, i'm proud of myself for sticking to my plan.

"sarps" now that's a new one. =p i blearily dragged myself out of bed today 20 mins before church..and was soooo sleepy..(of course, sleeping at 5 am due to excessive stubbornness and refusal to sleep even though i was completely stoned last night) i fell asleep during communion..the piano was playing softly and everyone was quiet..and i spilt ribena on chris too..hahah..lucky he was wearing waterproof pants..=p anyway, after service we went to box hill for lunch..the woman at the cafe was so frickin grumpy. i couldn't decide what i wanted, then i changed the order and she's like glaring at me before violently crossing out the previous order and scribbling the new one in..and she didn't give me a receipt either, so when i went back for one she's like.."NO RECEIPT" *glare,glare* and i'm like.."everyone else has one.." and she like heaved a sigh and marched back to the counter, and violently scribbled somemore stuff on a receipt and ripped it out harshly and shoved it in my face..and i took it and she snatched it back to stamp something on it..and i was just standing there blinking ._. like.."excuseeee me!" gee..rude grumpy asian middle-aged cashiers. the tom yum is like not hot and not sour and i had to call the guy to refill the chilli and he thought i was being an idiot and told me to take the plate there and do it myself..and i was like.."uhh no..i meant..there's no more.." -__-" anyway i got home and bummed for awhile and then went to aunty linda's place..did abit of maths and realized how rusty i am..it's a little scary but i intend to stick to my plan..which is, do homework and study before msn and relaxation..and sleep by 12..and of course go on my diet..=\ if not i'm going to balloon when i get back to singapore..

mm okay, well everyone did meet up eventually but we all split up into little groups. it was a bit awkward and quiet at first but it got okay later (: i'm glad i had this day to enjoy with my friends in any case, we took sticky photos which turned out a little funny =p jumpstart lasted really long, like 4 hours and it was literally random - the message at the end was pretty good..like it didn't make much sense at first (because it was meant to be random) whoops. i'm really low on credit now..like 2 bucks..coz i called a million and one people today on my mobile today..oh oh..i'm finally beginning to sort of "recognize" my way around. chapel street is really really big, and branded. and honestly, la coste *did i spell it right? anyway, la coste is really just a tiny crocodile on shirts..=p okay, lost my train of thought there, i don't really wanna sleep now coz it's like my last day to sleep late before school starts, but i got church tomorrow..hahah we'll see how long i last..ohh one thing i wish there was worship today though..but i guess it was good in any case..